i built my castle in the air...

Shoot for the Stars...

2010-11-09T12:23:00.002+08:00

Mood's Playing....

Natasha Bedingfield - Shoot For The Stars

We’re scared of the dark
With shadows and monsters
And things I don’t know
Of burning fires
The question of all questions
Of what the truth would show

The more I count the sheep
The harder it became to sleep
I couldn’t start waking
Cos all of the fears
That helped me for a ransom
Weren’t working anymore
Maybe if I…

Shoot for the stars
I’ll hit the moon
Anything, anything
Give me a chance
I wont refuse
Anything, anything
Whether I win, whether I lose
I’d rather jump and fall
Than never jump at all

It’s not over
’til I say it’s over (x2)

Took a brush and paint
Mixed up all the colours
And made a piece of art
Spread my emotions out on a canvas
For all to see my heart
Red for love and green for hate
And purple for the queen in me
The bright is blue for the truth
Wanna taste life to the fullest
Take it how you like
I’m gonna say things how they are

I’ll Shoot for the stars
I’ll hit the moon
Anything, anything
Give me your trust
I wont refuse
Anything, anything
Whether I win, whether I lose
I’d rather jump and fall
Than never jump at all

And im gonna be, im gonna be
Im gonna do, im gonna do
Not gonna taste it, im gonna chase it
Im gonna face whatever it takes
Im gonna be who I wanna be
And nobody’s going to stop me
Im free, free, free, free

And if I
Shoot for the stars
I’ll hit the moon
Anything, anything
Give me a chance
I wont refuse
Whether I win, whether I lose
I’d rather jump and fall
Than never jump at all

It’s not over
’til I say it’s over....

swollen....

2010-11-03T14:46:00.002+08:00

my upper right eye lid is swollen...booo

wearning shades at work and all that I'm seeming are yellowish in color (because of the shades).. feel like sleeping...

think i better go see the doc later after work... very worried that the 'bump' might get bigger...sigh, how come I'm always getting all these weird little illnesses....

sian ah...

oh a lighter note, yesterday I finally came up with a full melody! Not exactly my original composition as I took the lyrics of another song and came up with my own melody... but I'm satisfied cus Bevlyn and Yiwang said they think it's not too bad and they even said they can imagine Jolin singing this type of song... haha...oh right, quite an encouragment to me cus it's really my first full composed melody and I personally like it too...except the bridge part can be better so I'm going to improve on that... perhaps I will find one day to write down my own lyrics for the melody so that I can really call it my OWN original! =D

ok ok, i don't wan to strain my eyes further...shall stop here.

Mood's Playing: Jay Chou's Shuo Le Zai Jian

time to plan for dec short getaway...

2010-11-01T14:21:00.000+08:00

Ok. So I might be going for a Dec short getaway trip afterall…

Didn’t really plan for one but last minute being informed that all leave have to been cleared by year end hence the urge to want to get out of Singapore.. furthermore, two of my colleagues are going Hong Kong and suddenly I’m tempted to fly to Hong Kong too! Hong Kong was the first country I ever sat a plane and flew to and I like the country! Well…Taiwan still top my favourite list though…

I think I first went to Hong Kong about 4 or 5 years ago… it was indeed an unforgettable trip cus not only was it my ‘virgin’ trip.. it was also the trip where I first experienced overbooked of flight back and made to stay another night in the airport hotel (with compliments from Cathay) and where I lost the camera and all the photos and videos that we took during the entire trip! AHHHHHHH! Don’t remind me… =*(

I hope I can go back there to re-capture all the scenes…

Anyway, so right now, I’m probably going to plan one short weekend trip cus it’s really kinda late to plan for any longer ones and they’ll probably cost a lot more higher… hoping next year I can do abit more travelling so that I can visit a few places like Hong Kong, Taiwan and Japan! And maybe another family trip to places like Vietnam? Haha… I wonder where I can find the money to go do all these places…..

On a short note, I’m going to Universal Studios this public holiday…. I’m a really timid girl when it comes to all sort of entertainment rides… maybe it’ll be a waste of money for me to be there but we’ll see how it goes… will try to share some pictures then.

Now, back to my Dec trip hunting…

Mood’s Playing: 王力宏 – 你不知道的事

"Going Home"

2010-10-29T11:27:00.002+08:00

Well, guess I’m back to blogging… Was looking at my archives and suddenly I realized I missed blogging..or rather I miss putting my thoughts on writing. Maybe I’m getting older and my memory seems to be failing on me. Good to have these memories written down so that I can reminisce in future.

So much things have happened while I was away from blogging. So much so I have no idea what or where should I begin...

I’m starting to realize that I’m really becoming more mature…yes, it might sound like some self-compliment or perhaps some might frown and disagree but it’s ok because I know myself. Yes, I think I’ve matured a lot in my thinkings..perhaps because of the stories I hear from people around me and also because I learnt to understand that family is really important. We had our very first family trip to Taiwan earlier this april… though Taiwan is not a best place for family trip and the trip burnt a really big hole in my wallet, I felt that the money was well spent cus it was really an experience to be spending the quality time with family. Sometimes, I look at my parents n I feel really sad cus I realized they are no longer that young anymore but yet they have to continue to work and unable to relax. I really wished I can make more money so that I can ensure they can go holidays and enjoy their life.

Recently, I just completed a group project on the topic of Dementia. While doing the project, I came across a lot of information about how elderly ppl are very much at risk of getting dementia and I start to get worried for my grandma. She is near 80 already and I’m thankful that she is still able to walk and even follow her favourite Taiwan dramas everyday. My grandma aka ah ma has taken care of me and my sis since we were born and I really can’t imagine how life would be if one day, god decides to take her away…. I’ve always imagine her at my wedding and sometimes I also think about her carrying my baby (though right now, I don’t really fancy the thought of having one…). I feel v indebted to ah ma and I really really love her a lot…

I’m starting to get abit emo writing all these and I can feel my nose getting all ‘sour’….

That’s all for today ba..i shall write about my siblings for the next entry. Before I sign off, here’s a video I would like to share.. a video that got me sobbing badly while watching it…

Mood's Playing: 田馥甄 - 寂寞寂寞就好

Finally a new post!

2010-07-19T16:48:00.003+08:00

I was at our secondary school friends' once-in-a-blue-moon dinner gathering yesterday (big THANKS to zhongxiao for the sushi tei treat!) when they reminded me of my blog! So, here I'm am to revive it... well, at least a post for this month... =X

I've started schooling and yes, it's really fun to be a student again but no, the assignments are driving me nuts! Oh my, what a lot of research and writing to do! It's really no joke trying to juggle between work and studies and what's more, my hobbies such as dancing and of course, spending time with boyfriend.....can someone remind me on why i ever took up part time studies...

anyway, the first trimester is going to be over. I really hope i pass the 2 modules cus I've aboslutely no wish to go through them again - waste time, waste money. Whoever is reading this, please wish me luck! I think I really need them...

On another note, i've been dancing less often as before..yes, partly because of sch (made me a lazy bum or rather, a tired body). Recently, I was given an opportunity to further my dance 'career' but sadly, I choose to give up the opportunity due to personal reasons.... am rather depressed about it but I guess sometimes, you just have to learn to let go of certain things in life... and life couldn't been any better for me cus my colleagues have tendered and thus leaving me all alone in the department to take on the responsibilities.... sigh... at a time like this? I hope I can get through this rather mentally and physcially strained period.... hopefully everytime will turn out fine just like how I survived in my previous job.... *sing "I will surive"

I need to go back to studying for the coming exam on Wed..... here's a nice video and song to end off this entry:

Mood's Playing: 我是一只小小鸟

Monthly Blog update?

2010-04-16T10:13:00.002+08:00

I'm so going to make this blog a monthly affair.... been really busy (with I dunno what) and hardly have time to log on to blogger to type my post... well... maybe the novelty is wearing off too... i think i'm better at updating my Twitter status and entertaining myself with Facebook... =)

Just returned on Sun from my first ever family trip. I wanted to go to taiwan for the dance classes again (cus I miss Qiu Qiu..haha) but i didn't managed to go for any dance this time round as I had to acompany my family and since only mi & my sis went taiwan before, we had to be the 'tour guide' for this trip.

My parents, YY(younger bro) and myself took the Wed flight to taipei and my sis & bro joined us on thur. Weather in Taipei was damn shiok cus it's an average of 20C throughout the 5 days we were there. Mum & Dad had to buy sweater cus they were freezing cold... but i really loved the air-con weather! WooHooo~~

I want to blog more about the TW trip but i dun haf the luxury of time to do so now... I think i'll try to update it when I return home tonight... =D

Back to work....~

Mood's Playing: aiLin's 現在我很幸福

13 March events

2010-03-16T16:03:00.006+08:00

Yes.. if you read my below post.. you'll know how much I hated 13 March... but hey hey.. 13 march turns out to be a funtastic day!!! See my photos below to believe what i've said..

Loreal Dance Off event at Takashimaya (Style Vs Style - Slicks Vs Streets)

The Slicks during one of our late night rehearsals

Singapore Entertainment Awards @ Marina Floating Platform! Representing Music Forest Performing Crew

dancing for near 10K audience.. cool!

sat at the audience seat after our performance...

Liang Wen Yin~

Yoga Lin You Jia! His Live Singing is DOPE!!!

JJ Lin! His singing was damn touching~

E-Shen2 aka Eason! Power singer and abit high~

I'm just so excited to be on stage and I really look forward to future performances..

whee =)

Mood's Playing: Lin Jun Jie - Bu Chao Bu Hua Qian

13 March is a cursed date!!!!

2010-02-23T15:25:00.002+08:00

I’ve finally decided to return to school life… am not doing it as a full time student but part time cus there’s no way I can do without a job (or rather $). Understand that it’s not going to be easy to study and work at the same time... what’s more I’ve got dance and also my precious darling… hope I will survive.. I do think I can manage my studies, though not really a fantastic student but I think I should be able to not let myself sink to the bottom too!

Just to share, I’m taking BA in Communications in Public Relations awarded by Murdoch Uni in SMA. The campus is in City Hall so i guess I cannot give any excuse of not going for classes because it’s far... =X
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My thoughts got disrupted cus I received an email…. a chance to perform for Singapore Entertainment Awards… and OMG! It’s on the freaking 13th March again!!!! Why is everything, yes, I mean everything, happening on this date….is there any way I can create another 2 of me to attend to 3 events on the same day!? Okie.. I’m utterly sad now…

Sigh….

mood's playing: Lady Gaga - Bad Romance

Vote for me!

2010-02-03T12:21:00.003+08:00

Hi All,

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親愛的是我

2010-01-29T12:15:00.003+08:00

Went to Teo Heng KTV last Sun (OMG! It's really cheap n the sound system is cool!) and i sang a few new songs that day. Am definitely marking '親愛的是我' as one of the must sing song for the next few sessions cus i really like the melody and lyrics!

To share my love, i've embedded the videos of the song here. One by the original singer and the other by Yuming (male version).

Enjoy!

親愛的是我
你绝望的那一天门关的很轻
我却从没听见你流泪声音

守着我背影原来是你一直是你
越是来不及越责怪自己没有说

好想说亲爱的是我爱如何哭着问候不颤抖
曾在泥泞背着我走又朝阳光背对我走
不再边笑边呼唤我

好想说亲爱的是我撕裂回忆比存封还难受
说好听见回答就走又怕你只回答就走
像在梦里回过头说
亲爱的是我
是我　
原谅我

窗外晾外的雨衣还留着雨滴
是我们相依为命最后痕迹

有一些事情未必不停就想不起
例如我爱你在大声喊也没回音

好想说亲爱的是我爱如何哭着问候不颤抖
曾在泥泞背着我走又朝阳光背对我走
不再边笑边呼唤我

好想说亲爱的是我撕裂回忆比存封还难受
说好听见回答就走又怕你只回答就走
像在梦里回过头说
亲爱的是我

By Liang Wen Yin (Female's version - original)

By Yuming (male's version)

Mood's Playing: 梁文音 - 親愛的是我

2010-01-29T12:11:00.000+08:00

海派甜心

2010-01-20T11:26:00.003+08:00

海派甜心!

I like this drama alot! Cus got 2 of my fav idols! Rainie & Xiao Zhu! I think the story is also very interesting...

Am going to catch the final epsiode by this week. Hopefully it has been uploaded...

wheeeee~~

Mood's Playing: 罗志祥- 爱不单行

Down for the past 3 days

2010-01-15T11:20:00.002+08:00

Was terribly sick for the past 3 days... stomach felt extremely uncomfortable and I just couldn't sleep soundly... fever on Tue and Wed and i practically slept through these 3 days... Din really felt that 3 days has passed cus I was in bed most of the time.....

finally, i'm feelin better today but my strength & energy is still taking some time to recover.. dear was very nice to come over on Tue to bring me to the doc and look after me (while using his laptop besides my bed & 'disturbing' me at times with ducky.. =p )

Putting my sickness aside, mi & dear went to the Barrage last Sat and took quite a heafty no. of pics using both the digital cam and my lomo cam... below are some of my fav pics. =)

Good enough for some 'Anti-depression campaign' posters? heeehee

My favourite pic! LOVE!!!
Mood's Playing: Lin Jun Jie - 第几个一百天

Xmas week

2009-12-28T12:31:00.004+08:00

Xmas is over! Seems like a rather happening week for me.

On Xmas eve, met up with the old buddies from Secondary (Sutee, Xiao, Ting & BF, Jonathan, Alan, Chye Soon, Tian Kwan, Peishan) and the 10 of us went to Mind’s Café at Tampines Safra for some gaming. Xiao suggested that all should wear either white or green to go with the Xmas celebration (no idea what’s with this color combi…thought it should be red & green….) and end up most of us were dressed in green cus we thought others will wear white… haha.

In terms of the variety of games, food and service level, I think settlers’ still score higher than mind’s (no.. I’m not saying this because my bro works for settlers) but since the price is also cheaper than settlers.. I shall not complain much.

Xmas! Wohoo~ headed over to eddie’s house (all the way in pioneer) for our usual mahjong session! There was some mis-communication as Eddie wasn’t informed about the session till evening time! We decided to go over to his house first (and play his Wii) and wait for his return. The game started with Eddie & Joe winning most of the games (which is really nothing new)… my score was a negative two digits till the later part where my lady god of luck decided to smile at me! Managed to turn the scores around and emerged as the grand winner when the session ended at 6.30am on Boxing Day! Haha…. One female against three males! Yay~~~ Poor dear… he was the biggest loser…

Oh ya, we also did a xmas gift exchange and we force Eddie to use his box of unopened ferrero roche as exchange since he didn’t prepare any. I got dear’s present which was the mini musical box!!! That’s was something which I really wanted and I’m so happy to have picked it! On top of that, dear also bought me the yellow ducky soft toy which I eyed on the other day! He was pretty annoyed at me when I kept hugging on to the ducky at the store…am really surprise he got it for me cus I thought he’s already complaining that I’ve got toooooo many soft toys.. haha…oh my god~ ducky is sooo cute!

Tigger taking care of the new addition in the family - Ducky

Hahaha Anyhow… I reached home around 8.15am to take a power nap till noon cus I needed to prepare and get out of the house for a dance rehearsal at 2pm. Surprisely, I didn’t felt as tired as I thought I would be. Rehearsal ended around 6pm and my sis & I went down to Tampines to have our dinner and settle Choon Hui’s presents. Sunday came! Waackin Instructor Course Level 1 – 2nd class! Oh boy! Waackin was a killer! The warms up… the squats and the push ups! I wake up this morning with aching limbs! I think by the end of the course, I will have 6 packs and ‘little mouse’ on my arms! Waackin was fun but really tiring. We had to do the waackin routine for continuously 7mins! I was completely drenched in my own sweat at the end of the 3-hr class. Nonetheless, I’m all prepared to go all out and do well for waackin! Jia You!!!

After the horrendous class, I went over to dear’s house to bathe and nap… haha.. cus I needed to meet Choon Hui & the rest at 6pm for dinner thus it make more sense for me to go over to dear’s place than to head home and out again. Dinner was at Yuki Yaki. Objective was to do an advance bday celebration for our dearest choon hui! Quoted from Aloyious – “it’s so full of activities, love & surprises” haha…. Anyway, the food was ok and we had fun ‘waackin’ the ice-cream… haha…hanged around the arcade as ms choon hui decided to ‘giab’ some mini toys again! We figured that she is addicted to these games and Keng Wee should be recommending a psychiatrist for her soon. She has already got tons and tons of these soft toys at home and yet she is still playing more & more! Think she easily spent around min. $10 yesterday jus trying to grab some toys… haha.. but she was really nice to give each of us something… =) Thank you Choony! We love you!! Alright.. now my arms, my chest, my butt and my legs are aching…. Better rest my fingers before they ache too… haha..

Ice-cream in the making...

Pose! Pose! Pose!

mi & the little oscar from Choon Hui! haha

Winnie The Pooh Stuck at the scooper...

Happy Birthday Choon Hui!

Happy 2010 in advance!!!

p/s: Do come down to cinelesiure for countdown and you might just see me there. =)

Mood’s Playing: 杨丞琳 - 雨爱

21 more days to Xmas

2009-12-04T09:21:00.004+08:00

21 more days to Xmas~~~ lalalala...

more pictures taken with my Zumi last sat... =)

Presenting Patrick & Patrick....

"Ohhhh..it's Patrick the starfish!"

Domo-attack!

Dear walking around with Mr Bump~ they look happy together!

Tigger amongst the rest of the soft toys..

Oh oh~ Sitch is caught!!!

Mood's playing: Tanya's 夜盲症

I was touched...

2009-11-26T14:21:00.003+08:00

Was listening to the radio this morning when Cruz started talking about the mumbai terriorist attack which happened 1 year ago. As he cited the interview article in which Lianhe Zaobao had with the husband of the late Ms Lu (the 28-yr old lawyer who was killed in the attack), i could sense his voice was abit shaky and then i realised my eyes were red and tears were on the verge of my eyes too.

I went online to search for the full article and as I was reading the article, my tears duct were once again...

Learn to treasure your loved ones.... you never know when you'll lose them....

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Source: http://www.zaobao.com/sp/sp091126_006.shtml

女律师孟买恐怖袭击遇害一周年
迈克：我还没有走出来
（2009-11-26）

● 杨萌

　　虽然两个月前就开始约这个访问，不过，当记者前天下午在市区的一家咖啡馆见到迈克时，还是有点不太相信这个穿着条纹衬衫、手拿着手机和名牌钱包、快步从对街银行办公楼走出来的法律主管就是一年前在众人面前崩溃的遇害女律师卢慧燕的丈夫。

　　是的，时间一转眼过去了，明天就是在孟买酒店遭恐怖分子无情杀害的卢慧燕的一周年忌日。
　　之前华文媒体把Michael Puhaindran的名字翻译成麦克，这次他才说，原来他的华文名叫“迈克”，他说，“迈”是迈进、进步；“克”是克服。

　　见面时，他双眼有点微肿，皮肤晒得长雀斑，不过气色还算不错。他语速很快，或许因为是律师，他的修辞功力很高，同一个意思用好几种表达方式，说到伤心处也很有逻辑地加以解释。
理智剖析一年来的生活跟一年前的当众痛哭不一样，这次迈克不但没有掉泪，甚至适时调侃自己，说完了呵呵笑起来，唯一哽住的时候也只是稍微红了眼眶。

　　38岁的他很理智地剖析了自己这一年来走过的悲伤、起伏和生活的种种，仿佛在述说别人的故事一样条理分明，仿佛他已经走出伤痛。

　　但同时，他又感性地给自己的现状定调。他坦承自己并没有走出来，“我不要也不想……要不是朋友和父母，我不想他们承受我所承受的痛，我会跟着慧燕去的，现在还没有找到（活着）的意义和目的。”

　　去年11月，卢慧燕到孟买出席一个法律座谈会，下榻奥拜罗三叉戟酒店，结果那里被恐怖分子包围，她被掳为人质并遭杀害。

卢慧燕逝世时28岁，成了第一个在国外死于恐怖袭击的国人，她穿着白色婚纱的美丽模样连续好多天出现在报章，她和丈夫的幸福故事也让人无限感伤。
迈克：世界完全变了样

　　这一年来，大家继续生活，可是迈克的世界却完全变了样，他说，自己愿意接受访问，其中一个主要原因是想感谢大家的帮助。

　　他透露，刚开始时，周围的将近50个亲友为了不让他胡思乱想，排了班表每天轮流陪他，包括慧燕的朋友，这样一连维持了好几个月。

　　“周末两个班。午餐一个人，晚餐一个人，有时候是跟三四个人一群，看跟谁出去就做不同的事。起初我并不知道这样的安排，不过很快就意识到了。”

　　他一直都住在和卢慧燕同筑在东部的爱巢，他说，起初弟弟晚上会去陪他，后来他要求自己睡，他需要那样的独处的空间。“那个时候我才能感受到痛，好像是跟她心灵交会的时候。”

　　他也记得，起初有很多人写电邮给他，大约有一两千封，结果他的邮箱爆满。Facebook的追思页面上，现在也已有近1万5000个网友。“有些外国人还寄电邮来，他们也说了关于失去（亲人）的经历，现在我还跟其中一些人保持联络，成了网友。”

　　事发时，他其实已经辞掉之前的工作，在到新的银行工作之前有两个星期休息，事发后，他也只是多休息了两个星期就上班，他知道自己应该走出户外。

　　大约一两个月后，他开始强迫自己运动，比如星期三打壁球、星期六骑脚踏车、星期天踢足球，甚至重新开始潜水。他也开始让生活恢复节奏，比如星期二跟慧燕家人吃饭、星期四和星期六跟自己的家人。

　　他还做家务，整理房间，把一些慧燕的衣服和包包送人，但他说，她的衣服还是挂满了衣橱。整体的状况是，他的情绪从早期的流于表面，到现在比较“内化”，也更深刻。

　　在访问过程中，迈克唯一停顿的时候是谈到他到土耳其拜访一对年迈夫妇——事发时跟慧燕一起被捉，有幸被释放，他们有个年纪跟慧燕相仿的女儿。“他们没有说太多，老太太一直握住慧燕的手……”

　　记者问他，哪一段日子是心情最低落的时候，他说，心情时起时落，晚上老是无法安眠。
　　“我每天每秒都在体会那种痛，所以有时觉得日子过得很慢，但又觉得好像是昨天才发生的。”
　　明天下午3时，迈克将在慧燕安息的天使之后天主教堂（Church of St Mary of the Angels，位于武吉巴督东2道）举办追思会。迈克说，这是个私人追思会，不希望太多公众前来。

记者与迈克的一些问与答

问：有什么心愿是你想为亡妻完成的？
答：她想要做的是我无法替她完成的，因为我们明年想要个孩子（哈哈），想要买个房子。就是两口子做的事，我自己做就有点难。

问：你走在街上曾被人认出来吗？
答：以前有，不过并没有什么人跟我打招呼。话说回来，我不怎么去那些吵闹的地方比如购物中心（我还没去过Ion Orchard）、夜店和高级餐厅，因为那是以前常跟慧燕做的事。我一直住在东部，刚开始时，我甚至连吃饭都坚持只在东部，那里是我的安全地带。

问：每逢一些特别的日子，如她的生日或结婚纪念日，你都会在Facebook留言，比如F1的时候，你说去年跟她看的，今年的F1你去看了吗？
答：今年我故意没去看F1，只是看了电视转播的最后半小时。我现在也不怎么喝红酒和香槟，而是改喝威士忌，因为这是以前她不太喝的。

问：没去购物，没怎么打扮自己，你看起来还不错。
答：我没有特地去打扮，只是尽量不要让自己太邋遢，慧燕如果知道你称赞我，她会很高兴的，因为她总是比较在乎这方面。如果可以的话，我也只想穿汗衫百慕达裤。除了年初去美国探望弟弟时到工厂直销买了些衣服，今年还真的没买过衣服。

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Mood's playing: Lin Jun Jie - 我还想她

Digital Harinezumi

2009-11-16T15:45:00.005+08:00

Some photos sharing time~

Pictures taken quite some time back... my mum bought the massaging thingy from OTO and I got Tigger to model for it... hee...

He sure looks happy with it.. haha

Next up... my new toy! my Digital Harinezumi aka Zumi.

Zumi is a 2-megapixel Digital camea that produces pictures with a soft, out-of-focus feel. The colors emulate that of Lomo shooters--often quirky and sometimes unsaturated. Although this snapper has an LCD screen, shutterbugs won't be able to use it to frame shots. Instead, the firm has incorporated a plastic viewfinder on top of the camera for that purpose. As for the display, it is reserved for viewing pictures only.

Lomography?

Lomography emphasizes casual, snapshot photography. Characteristics such as over-saturated colors, off-kilter exposure, blurring, "happy accidents," and alternative film processing are often considered part of the "Lomographic Technique."Users are encouraged to take a lighthearted approach to their photography, and use these techniques to document everyday life

The 10 Golden Rules of Lomography

01 : Take your LOMO with you EVERYWHERE you go

02 : Use it all the time, every time DAY AND NIGHT

03 : LOMO does not interfere with YOUR LIFE, it's part of it

04 : Get as CLOSE as possible to the objects of your Lomographic desire

05 : Don't think

06 : Be quick

07 : You don't have to know what you're shooting

08 : You don't have to recognize what you've shot

09 : Shoot from the hip and over your head 10 : Don't worry about rules

Here's my few attempts using Zumi...

Taken off the table top in MacDonald's

Using sparkle jelly lens... my yummylicous looking yong tau foo

our weekend outing at the Singapore Flyer.... micro zoom in...

I think my dear looks cool in this pic...

red flower... very vibrant colors!

water droplets on the leaf...

A few more of the here & there pictures...LOMO ON~

I'm really addicted to my Zumi and have been snapping it really often that i don't really have time to hold my dear's hand.. haha... but it's really addictive..esp when you fail to get nice pics.. u'll try to do it a few more times.. but if the pic turns out really cool, you'll be greatly encouraged! =) And because you can't do any focusing or angling... you'll really be surprised by the pictures taken!

Mood's playing: 蔡旻佑's 寂寞,好了

簡單与冒險

2009-11-04T17:32:00.002+08:00

簡單与冒險
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有人說過:

“最大的冒險,是不冒險.”

這種話,

是給追求安穩的人說的.

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有人說過:

“最大的遺憾,是不冒險.”

這種話,

是給追求精采的人說的.

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追求精采的你,

往往在追求的過程中失去了很多東西.

犧牲很大.

可是.

請不要看不起追求安穩的他.

因為,你看,

他們,

在追求安穩的過程中,

也放棄了很多能夠多姿多彩的東西.

犧牲一樣大.

如此可見,

大家都是同類..

都是 - 追求者.

只是追求的東西相反,

所以很容易意見不合.

可是其實啊~

這兩者.

大同小異.

你們說是不是呢?

我以前是60安穩,40冒險.

現在.. 哈.

在不同的場合要求不一樣的效果..

所以安穩以及冒險之間是不斷的在調整的.

凡事啊,

要平衡.

你們.. 是愛簡單,還是愛冒險呢?

Read the above from Derrick's blog ... interesting...

Mood's Playing: 卢广仲's 最寂寞的时候

Patrick Star!

2009-11-03T17:11:00.002+08:00

This is my boyfriend! Hahaha…..

We finally know what’s ‘Patrick’ (the pink starfish character in SpongeBobs Square) Chinese name is….

派大星（Patrick Star）
年齡：10歲（10月8日出生、天秤座）
一隻粉紅海星，是海綿寶寶的朋友，住在章魚哥家隔壁的大石頭底下。好吃懶做而且無腦（但考駕照卻異常厲害，曾幫海綿寶寶作弊考駕照），經常一事無成。又稱「粉紅大胖呆」，沒有鼻子及耳朵（曾經整形過，但後來鼻子被臭味薰壞了，但是耳朵不知道為何消失），認不得自己的父母，最喜歡看電視節目，是一個電視海星，用污垢洗澡。
住在石頭房子裡，也會有其他習性，像是睡懶覺、惡作劇。
雖然是海星，但因為是卡通的關係，海星的一個腳是頭，兩個腳是手，剩下的兩隻才是腳。

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Boomz! I can't believe I'm falling victim to the marketing gimmick by MacDonalds! Their monopoly game is really getting into me... haha.. anyone got "Shenton Way" or "Joo Chiat" or "Sentosa Cove".... ?

Mood's Playing: Zhang Hui Mei's 掉了

If only….

2009-10-29T17:15:00.000+08:00

Daydreaming.

If there comes a day where I no need to worry about money no need to wake up at 7am to prepare for work and knock off only at 6pm, I think my days would probably be like this...

I would probably sleep till I wake up on my own (not by any irritating alarms!)
Slowly enjoy my breakfast & read the newspaper
Watch TV (if there’s any interesting programmes)
Practice my keyboard
Do some exercise (e.g. prac waackin, hip-hop, crutches, weights lifts etc)
Cook my own healthy lunch & watch TV while I eat
On the internet the whole day and watch all the youtubes I want
Go out shopping and buying stuff without looking at the price tags
Cab home (or anywhere) if I’m feeling tired to walk
Disturb dear dear by going to his house everyday!

Lalala….

If only….

Mood’s Playing: Fame - Remember

flash mob

2009-10-25T00:05:00.002+08:00

flash mobs!!! so fun!!!

Over sixty Studio Wu students and dancers and volunteers staged a flash dance mob as part of Dans:Festival 2009 publicity blitz. This was the first of the series which kicked off on Sept 19 at Raffles City. Subsequently, the mob also 'flashed' in Hereen & Vivo City! =)

Esplanade's da:ns festival...Fall in Love with Dance!

23rd October 2009 - Raffles Place (HTC Phone Dance Flash mob)

Possibly the BIGGEST flash mob in Singapore, of approximately 200 dancers spreading infectious rhythmic vibes with invigorating dance beats, bringing life to Raffles Place. This is potentially the largest Flash Mob Dance executed in Singapore and Asia, which will be submitted as an entry for the Guinness Book of World Records.

Mood's Playing: Do that thing you do!

After so long

2009-10-15T16:50:00.003+08:00

In another 1hr plus, I'll meet up with Ant and we'll hope on the bus to JB! Reason? We are going to be Eik Chyun's Jie Mei! It's going to be her BIG DAY tml... Yay!! My first time being a jie mei and it's not even in Singapore! What an experience.

Anyhow, that's what going to happen tomorrow. Right now, I think I should be responsible to my blog and try to update the happenings for the past few weeks...

My organisation's annual Awards Dinner just ended last Wed. Phew... finally... we were working so hard for it for the past 2 months and I'm happy that our hard work paid off cus many of the attendees felt that it was very well organised. Happy!

p/s: I've been trying to upload the photos for the past 30mins but it's just doesn't work and I dun haf time to wait for it to happen... so wait till next post ba...

Oh ya! Another shocking thing that I did right after the event was.... I went to cut my hair! YES! I finally plucked the courage and chopped off almost half of my hair.. wahaha..... oh my! How exciting.. a new image for me! No pictures available yet... so readers.. imagine yourself.. hahahaaa...

I've been chasing the drama 溏心风暴II 之家好月圆. Oh My GOd! it's damn interesting la. I don't understand why Hong Kong always produce such good drama serials but SG.... haiz..

Anyhow, this drama is really nice! All the characters are like main characters and their emotions etc are so well protrayed! There are scenes where you really feel that life is so unfair and when the bad guys are being punished, you just feel so shiok! Of course, there are lots of sad and touching scenes too and most of the times they really made me teared... Sharing one of my favourite epi frm the drama.... I was attracted to the song (分分鐘需要你) the very first time I heard part of it from a song by Z Chen (快乐).

I admit i really cried while i was seeing this part.... so touching... awwww.....

mood's playing: Bevlyn Khoo's Talk To Me (插曲 from 溏心风暴II 之家好月圆)

Dance of course

2009-09-18T20:52:00.004+08:00

What a hectic week!

Alright... so Dance of Course recital is over... yea.. everything happened so quickly...am relly glad to have performed waackin and of course, to receive some encourging comments from my audience who came.. esp thanks to Bev! =) really look forward to future 'waackin' performances but dunno how possible will it be since bryan has left...

on another note. i feel like i hasn't been hip-hoping for long... feels weird...wanted to go for either Patrick or Ahmad class today at danz people but i guess work was too stress and busy for mi today that my head hurts in the late afternoon and thus i decided to head home and rest..afterall... tml is going to be another busy (& exciting) day!

well .. finally found the opportunity to update my blog so let's feed it with some photos....

The waackers!

Mi & my sis

Waacky Waacko
My idol! she so pretty!

Our hotel room in sentosa

The golden tix...

Lalalala....

Mood's Playing: Boogie Wonderland...

Back...

2009-09-12T00:20:00.003+08:00

Phew... haben been bloggin for quite some time blogger doesn't seems to work well with my office com..cant format the fonts.. cant upload pics or videos... sian...

anyway... i'm at home now & i'm supposed to be sleeping cus tml we'll be doin the full run for Dance,Of Course Recita on Sun... but let just try to update abit before i log off...

Now.. where should i start... okie.. talk abt darling's bday..

We had planned to go Sentosa for his bday a month ago...but alas it rained on his bday eve and thus he felt lazy & suggested tt we shud jus buy puzzle & go hm do...BUT, he obviouslu didn't know that his very wonderful gf had already secretly booked a room in one of the hotels in Sentosa so that they can play around Sentosa & rest & relac in Sentosa at the end of day

The rain was really quite a spoiler but i still managed to 'trick' dear tt i had no plan & then shocked him by 'forcing' him to go Sentosa...lol... anyway, the hotel was really comfortable and big.. & dear feedbacked that he felt like a King for the day.. hee

Glad U like the surprise! Once more, I managed to suprise U! heee

Moving on, I shall talk about my dance.. have been taking Waackin Course for the past 6mths & these 6 mths really changed me... I think I finally found a dance style which I really want to focus on and am really happy when I waack! Certainly hope mi & my sis (aka Waacko Waacky) can improve ourselves and find a path in waackin!

Though all seems so happy but alas, the greatest dance instructor whom I've started out with & whom is also my waackin instructor - Mr Bryan Lee, has decided to leave and start a new path. Though I'm really sad that I might not have chance to attend his classes anymore but i know that he will be happier with this decision. Hopefully, we can still get to session often and keep in touch!!

Alrighty! I think I'll elaborate more another day. My eyes are blurry.. needa go sleep liao....

Buaiz!

Mood's Playing: Boogie Wonderland

study

2009-09-02T14:55:00.000+08:00

Am thinking of hitting back into the books....

Mood's playing: Xu Jia Ying - Ji Mo Sha Zhou

p/s: blogger is down.....

徐佳莹

2009-08-20T11:02:00.000+08:00

recently i'm beginning to fall in love with 徐佳莹... i think her songs are all very nice and her voice is good and of course, her composing talent is really great!

徐佳莹 aka Lala was the champion of 超级星光大道 Season 3. Through out the competition, she has performed many of her own compositions and most of them received very good feedback and high scores from the judges!

i wan to sing her songs the next time i go ktv...top on the list are 失落沙洲 & 身骑白马!

Here's a clip on her performing with the contestant (徐詠琳) of 超级星光大道 season 5:

enjoy!

p/s: i want to go ktv!!!!!

mood's playing: 徐佳莹's 身骑白马

screwed

2009-08-14T17:44:00.000+08:00

Sorry... just couldn't find time to sit down and really update my blog... will try to get one or two entries out for the month of Aug...

anyway, today is my 1st dance friend's birthday!!! haha... she's the first friend whom i got to know when i went to dance in Music Forest.. and she is none other than Ms Ong Puay Son!

Happy Birthday Woman! Glad you like the surprise we gave you!

p/s: Blogger is nt functioning well.. arGH...

mood's playing: Lee Hom's 第一个清晨

Lousy SFF & Great NDP

2009-07-27T16:00:00.008+08:00

Show Cancelled. 24 07 2009

Frm Replugged Music:

On behalf of Replugged Music, we apologise for the cancellation of the programme due to poor judgement, and lack of integrity from Capitaland and Event organisers involved.

Above all, we hope that all lessons have been learnt on keeping the musicians' dignity at all times, and remembering our art cannot be replaced, and how effortlessly ignorance only reveals itself in the face of a confrontation.

They have offered us no concrete explanations and like a poor breakup, they have continued to push their blame on each other. Bevlyn, Zhaohao and I walk away knowing we have made our point.

Face it, the music scene is Singapore is far from gaining its recognition and respect. But we hope that you'd attempt to walk away feeling more motivated than ever to fight for what you believe in.

To me, you are all wonderful awesome rockin-it-on musicians. And I am proud to know I've once participated in your music-learning journey.

Thank you all, including Huibing, Sherman, Zhaohao, Bevlyn, Audris, Angeline, Yiwang, Fion, Meixian, Nianwen, Lynn, Vivian, Marianne, Michelle, Jason, Christabel, Darryl, Jasmine and all your wonderful supporters. We extend our apology to each and everyone of you for not being able to do more.

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"原来有些人没实力，但有势力

原来有实力没势力的人少的可怜

原来努力就为了保护自己的信念，自己的艺术"

- Yet's FB note to Juliet & students

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真的觉得好不公平。。。但现实就是这样。。。

毫无理由的把表演临时取消，欺骗我们然后又换上一组跟我们类似的表演上台。。。这是什么歪理！？好气哦！一点都不把我们放在眼里。。。#%^&*@&！

我们不是那么好欺负的。。。我们一定会找到属于我们的舞台，找到相信我们实力的舞台。
谢谢你让我们看到你们的肤浅、让我们知道原来我们对音乐是那么的执着，那么的热忱。

In time to come, people will see our worth....

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2009 NDP Preview on 25 July @ Floating Platform (Marina)

my sis's bf is helping out in NDP 09 hence he managed to get a total of 05 tix for us! I'm so excited cus I've been wanting to go to the NDP since it moved to the floating platform & of course I'm excited about the fun pack!!! lol

I love this scene...

Nice scenery...

'terrorists attack'

Fascinating performances! Ppl walking up & down the 'cubed' walls & there are also ppl standing in each of the cubes dancing or playing drums! very in syn with each other!

as you can see.. it was really very hot...

Finale ... did you spot the globe?

Post NDP - Xin Wang Cafe

"Happy 44th Birthday Singapore!"

Mi & my sis!

Come Together. Reaching Out. Reaching Up!

"Krist's flag got heart shape!!!"

Mood's Playing: 锦绣二重唱's 讲真话

Seriously Pop

2009-07-22T11:58:00.003+08:00

SFF & Replugged Music presents: Seriously, Pop!

The SFF was incepted in 1994 and has grown over the years to establish itself as a key event within Singapore’s calendar of events. Since its inception, SFF has successfully profiled Singapore’s diverse offerings of local and international food, positioning Singapore as the Food Capital in Asia.

SFF seeks to bring Singapore’s much-loved local cuisine to the world stage, by highlighting our unique local food as well as food culture and heritage.

For the entire month of July, participants can look forward to an even more exotic and sumptuous fare to leave you an unforgettable gastronomic experience islandwide!

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In celebration of this event, and of all the creative juices in our musical experiences, Replugged Music will be presenting an hour long's music-sharing from 9-10pm at Clarke Quay's Central Fountain (across the river from Central mall). In a similar spirit of re-creativity for want of a better expression, our students have been working hard and are excited to present you a selection of popular radio-friendly hits (both Mandarin and English) in an acoustic style.

Student pianists from Replugged Music are Cai Nianwen, Lynn Koh and Audris Ho. Special ukelele performances by student Vivian Lim who will also be our lovely emcee for the night. Curious to know who our charming student singers are? Come by and catch us from 9pm -10pm on 24th July 2009!

It will be a delicious night, street food, bright lights, charming voices. Very gastronimically sound, we think!

Come by and join us!

And while you're here, why not participate in SFF's lucky draw with prizes worth up to $8888!

Above 'story' taken from http://www.repluggedmusic.blogspot.com/.

p/s: I'll be doing a duet with my classmate so do come down and support ya. =)

Mood's playing: Songs I used to hear in my poly life...(e.g. Jing Xiu Er Chong Chang's Jiang Zhen Hua...Dong Li Huo Che's Wai Tao...etc etc)

Post Fever (1st update in Jul 09)

2009-07-14T15:50:00.002+08:00

Yea! I finally managed to upload the above pic! hahaha.... mi & Qiu Qiu (FK)!

Was down with a horrible fever and flu and cough the past week (no.. it’s not H1N1) and so my blog was also on MC these days… =p

Anyway, I’m almost fully recovered already so I’m back in action! This week is going to be a super duper busy week cus we are doing an inaugural event at Suntec over the weekend! The event is all about investments and educating you on investment so do drop by if you are nearby k? Admission is free so please come by yar~

Back to last week, I went to Sherine’s wedding! Yes, my poly course mate! She’s the first amongst my poly friends to step on the red carpet! Oh my… 24 years old.. isn’t it abit too young? Hmmm….. anyway, she looks really gorgeous that day and she look really compatible with her husband. Both of them are in the airline industry (one’s a air stewardess and another a pilot) and they ingeniously came up with the perfect wedding gift for the guest i.e. a luggage tag that’s either a groom or bride’ design! So cool…. It was not a very ra-ra wedding. Quite simple I would say. Maybe course I always imagine my own wedding to be even more exciting than that. Lol… It was also a great catch up with my poly mates. Saw ppl like Shi Fa, Cheng Xun, Terence, Wilfred, Cheryl, Naz and Su and of course my dearest Summer & Yvonne! Oh! I really miss them.. miss the ‘4-seasons’ days.. haha…. Though we haven’t met for quite some time already but I could feel the bonding still. Hope we can meet up often and this better not be just a ‘talk only but no action’ thingy. =)

Oh ya! Last wed was also the last class for waackin and also the battle for waackin course! As expected, I didn’t make it through the 1st round cus I was abit too nervous and was off beat here and there and my expression was nah~ not so good. But anyway, I’m proud of my sis cus I think she really did very well in the 1st round. Could very be the champion of that round but alas.. her battle with chingyi was not that great cus I think she was nervous and didn’t really do much waackin but more of her usual ah-lian pattern a lot.. hahaha… the battle was really fun and enjoyable cus I think everyone of us really improve a lot and there were a few jaw-dropping performances… hahaha….yea! Waackin 2 jia you!!!

Before I end this entry (cus I really need to get back to work), just to inform you guys, replugged music will be doing another performance at The Central (or somewhere near there) on 24 Jul around dinner time (will confirm timing again) and I do hope you guys can come down and support if possible! I’ll be singing! =) hee

Alrighty. Ciaoz!

Mood playing: Jiang Mei Qi – Shuang Shou De Wen Rou

Freaky Klownz

2009-06-29T13:49:00.006+08:00

Oh My God! I finally get to see Freaky Klown FACE TO FACE! Esp. meeting my idol - 球球！She is so small size. haha...

I went for her dance workshop on Sat at Music Forest and each time she stood beside me and dance, i was like 'woooahhhh'... so damn excited! hahaha Gene helped us took photos but I think her skills not very zhai.... but well.. it's still a photo taken with 球球！

OK.. sth is wrong with blogger... tried umpteens times to upload the pic but cannot..... anyhow.. i'll just update the blog first and photos later.. =)

Mood's Playing: Jay Chou's Xing Qing

離婚協議書

2009-06-27T00:18:00.002+08:00

Came across this'note' put up by one of my friends in my facebook network... it's a long story but very worth my time reading it...
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嫁給這個男人五年了，我不知道我是否還愛他，

記得剛新婚的時候，早晨時必定會在他懷抱中醒來，

我總是紅著臉不敢說一聲早，怕嘴裡的口氣弄皺了他的眉，

漱口杯與牙刷堅持要和他用同款不同色，

擺在一起看才有夫妻的感覺。

我會幫他打點上班的衣物，什麼襯衫配什麼領帶，

經過我的審美才准他穿上身。

起了床到餐桌上，為了他的健康，

我每天變換不同花樣的早餐，

晴朗的天可能是培根蛋加上烤土司，有些下雨的話，

或許來點小米粥搭醬瓜鹹蛋，要是陰天，

不如就吃些外頭的燒餅油條和豆漿，

招式用到我變不出新把戲，可是我樂此不疲。

除了當一個賢慧的妻子，我亦毫不掩飾對他的熱情，

「我愛你」是每天恭送他出門上班一定說的話，

然後附加一個親密的吻，即使他大多時候只是淺淺一笑，

也足夠我高興個老半天。

但是，五年過去了。

我相信還不到癢的時候，

可是到底是什麼改變了我和他的互動呢？

早晨起床，他的位置往往已空蕩，

只能由皺褶的床單證實他確實存在過，

即使他偶爾睡過了頭或者小賴一下床，

也絕對是急急忙忙由床上跳起來，匆忙的梳洗著衣。

我已經快忘了被他擁抱迎接朝陽的感覺，

盥洗室裡的漱口杯，在幾年前被打破後，

再也找不到一模一樣的，而另一個也因為掉到馬桶裡，

所以也換了新的。

五年內，牙刷已換了不知幾支，甚至有時我們睡迷糊了，

還會用上同一支，什麼口氣的問題都不需要掩飾了，

是否一樣顏色，一樣款式，他說這些根本不重要。

因此，洗手台上Hello Kitty和小叮噹圖樣，

漱口杯左右對峙，小叮噹的杯裡插著一支綠色牙刷，是我的，

Hello Kitty則是空的，因為他前一陣子已改用電動牙刷，

擺在架子上。

分屬兩個不同故事的漱口杯，

以及位於兩個不同位置的牙刷，

彷彿在嘲諷我們的夫妻關係，漸行漸遠。

因為他出門的時間早，打點他的衣著已經不再是我的事，

他自己會搞定。

早餐呢？很久沒有一起吃了，我同樣不必費盡心思去想菜單、

查食譜，反正沒人賞光，

更不用說「我愛你」這句話，還有熱情的早安吻，

他無福消受，而且現在說起來也有些矯情了。

仔細想想，五年來，他沒有說過一次「我愛你」，

一次也沒有。

我和他相聚的時間，嚴格上來說是從晚上七點開始，

也就是他下班回來之後，如果他加班的話，

那時間可能要延到十點、十一點。

剛結婚的時候，我為了他去學烹飪，「要抓住男人的心，

先抓住他的胃」，我深信這個鐵律。

所以，一些餐館名菜常出現在我們餐桌上，

宮保雞丁、五更腸旺、蔥油雞、東坡肉……等。

見他吃得高興，我也開懷，雖然不全是我愛吃的，

但是他愛吃就好。

飯後，我們會依偎在沙發上看電視，我陪他看新聞，

聽他評論國政、批判社情，

他陪我看八點檔，聽我調侃劇情、大哭大笑。

所以我知道行政院長、立法院長是什麼人，

他也知道當紅的李世民是誰演的。

我沒有料到的是，五年的時間可以改變這一切，

烹飪班我可以說是半途而廢，不知道從哪天起，

他開始干涉我做菜的方法，宮保雞丁他不喜歡太多辣椒，

五更腸旺他開始抵制，蔥油雞叫我別淋油，

連滷東坡肉要放多少醬油，他都有話說。

我做的菜漸漸變得簡單，烹飪班也不想去了，

有時候一盤炒青菜、

貢丸湯和皮蛋豆腐就打發掉他，他反而沒什麼意見。

我想，我抓不住他的胃。

隨著他加班次數的增加，我們甚少在一起看電視了，

除了現任總統是陳水扁，我對於國家大事可說一無所知，

而他，問都不用問，

台灣霹靂火的男主角是誰他絕對不可能知道。

夫妻之間開始言不及義，他對我說的話，

大多都是「不用等我」、「早點睡」，

我跟他說的話，也幾乎是「你回來了」、「菜在電鍋熱著」。

我們沒有相同的話題，沒有相同的興趣，

除了「夫妻」名義上的聯繫，我們的交流空泛的可憐，

比普通朋友還不如。

多可笑的夫妻關係，不是嗎？

婚前，我們曾描繪著未來的願景，他說要生兩個孩子，

先男後女，哥哥可以保護妹妹，

我卻認為應該先享受一段兩人生活，

生孩子的時情倒不急於一時，只是我不想壞了他的興致，

並沒有說出口。

婚後一陣子，他很積極的和我「創造宇宙繼起之生命」，

他想要孩子，從他不戴保險套的行為可以看得出來，

可是我還不想要，又怕他不高興，於是我背著他吃避孕藥。

記得那時，他還興沖沖的帶我到醫院探視一名女性朋友，

她剛生完一個四千兩百公克的巨嬰，

神色萎糜的躺在病床上。

我忘不了他隔著一塊玻璃看新生娃娃時，眼中綻放的神采，

可是我更忘不了，那位女性朋友用著虛弱的語氣告訴我，

她整整痛了一天一夜，才求醫生由自然產改為剖腹產，

我更不敢生小孩了。

五年後的今天，他似乎已經放棄生小孩這回事，

畢竟只有他一頭熱是沒用的。

可是，待在他上班之後空洞的房子裡，

我突然覺得生個孩子也不錯，至少屋子裡會熱鬧點，

我的寂寞，也會少一點。

他早就在數年前就開始用保險套了，

我不清楚是什麼讓他改變心意，不過這也鬆了我一口氣，

我對避孕藥似乎過敏，

不論換什麼牌子最後都落得一個水腫的下場。

我猜他六百多度的近視加閃光，

應該看不出我水腫前和水腫後有什不一樣，

重點是他的保險套解決了我一個大麻煩，

同時又帶來另一個新煩惱。

我現在想要一個孩子了，他卻似乎不想，

我不知怎麼跟他開口，更別提他頻繁的加班，

晚上常累得倒頭就睡，如果我再開這個口，

似乎變相增加他的壓力。

兩個人之間，已經夠低潮了，

不需要再增加一個會引起衝突的話題。

在我們戀愛的時候，他很喜歡帶我到淡水，

坐在河堤旁看落日，沿著碼頭走一遭，

可以吃到不同口味的各式小吃，

淡水的海產頗富盛名，他似乎是識途老馬，

總知道哪家是最道地的。

有時候，他帶著我坐渡輪到對岸的八里，

那裡熱鬧的只有一條路，賣的全是孔雀蛤，

兩個人可以吃掉一大盤，還覺得意猶未盡。

他也會和我騎雙人腳踏車沿著淡水老街騎到淡海，

再由淡海騎回來，沿路的風景不算十分迷人，

但有種質樸的味道，兼之海風鹹鹹的打在臉上，

我很享受這種氣氛。

當然，坐在腳踏車後座的我三天打漁兩天曬網，

心情好的時候才踩兩下，他明知我偷懶，還是賣力的踩，

我很懷念，真的即使過了五年，那段回憶仍然歷歷在目。

婚後到淡水的次數，除了新婚那一陣子，幾乎屈指可數，

近兩、三年更是一次都沒去過。

每到假日，他不到中午不會起床，我見他這麼疲倦，

當然也不會煩他帶我到處走走。

假日照理說，我和他應該可以有些交集可是他累，

我只能自己找事做，和在上班工作的朋友出門逛逛街，

聊聊是非，也順便埋怨一下他。

至於在家睡覺的他，午、晚飯，自己解決吧！

他不知道，在前幾個月，我耐不住無聊，

自個兒坐捷運到了淡水。

果然，太久沒有去了，

那裡已經變成一個我完全不認識的地方，

河堤旁的小吃攤不見了，全部集中在捷運站附近，

過去我和他看夕陽的地方整修成一條長堤，僅供散步，

路面變得乾淨整潔固然是好，

但是收藏著我和他美好記憶的地方，消失了。

沒有他的帶路，我找不到道地的海產店，

找不到好吃的小吃，自己一個人也騎不了雙人單車，

但我驚訝的發現，淡水多了一個漁人碼頭，可以坐公車過去。

漁人碼頭，他的腳步沒有踏上過，我先了他一步，

這是沒有他，只有我的經驗。

到了漁人碼頭邊，風景美復美矣，

卻有種人工雕砌的做作，

我以為花了幾百元搭乘藍色公路可以到對岸八里，

就像渡輪一般，

但那失了古風的遊艇卻繞了一大圈後又開回原點。

除了顛簸的船身搖得我頭暈目眩，

我記不起來什麼美麗的風景，連孔雀蛤也沒撈到一粒，

淡水變了，我和他的回憶，也變了。

某個早上，我特地比他早起，

煮了頓睽違已久的豐盛早餐給他。

然後，沒有第三者，沒有爭吵．

我遞出了離婚協議書。

那是我第一次看到他那麼震驚的表情，如果那天是愚人節，

我想我成功了。

可是，我不會開那般惡劣的玩笑，他知道我是認真的，

他沒有像一般男人一樣，暴跳如雷，開始數落女方的罪狀，

也沒有哭哭啼啼，跪下哀求我留下，

他只是極力冷靜自己的心緒，默不吭聲的接下協議書，

開門，上班，一如往常。

他或許也察覺我們的夫妻關係到了一個瓶頸，

也打算仔細考慮離婚的可行性，他近幾年的疏離，

我沒有流下一滴眼淚，可是他這天的冷漠，

幾乎傾盡我五年的淚水。

我有些後悔，這後悔逐漸蔓延，以心臟為一個起點，

通傳至我的頭頂及腳趾。

但後悔又如何呢？

不快刀斬亂麻，也只是拖著一個平淡如水的日子，

兩個人乾耗。

我不知道自己對他的愛剩多少，

更不清楚他對我的愛剩多少。

嫁給他之前，我就知道他沈默寡言，嫁給他之後，

自以為能改變他的我，並沒有改變他多少。

我的愛，還不足以改變他，他的愛，亦不足以為我改變，

這大概是關鍵所在。

柴米油鹽醬醋茶會摧毀愛情的甜蜜，我嚐到了，

但這卻是用五年換來的教訓。

趁現在，沒有孩子，沒有牽絆，我也不貪圖他什麼，

該是離婚最好的時機吧！

抖著手在離婚協議書上簽下名的我，

到之後他出去幾個小時了，我仍然在發抖，

這是一種未知的惶恐，我等他給我一個結果。

他冷淡了我五年後，又凌遲了我七天。

從離婚協議書交到他手上之後，整整一個星期，

他不與我說一句話，也睡了七天的沙發，

每天仍然照常上下班，除了更加冷淡，

我感覺不到他的喜怒哀樂。

那張協議書，就算扔到垃圾筒裡，

還會有觸動垃圾袋的聲音，可是他，一點聲音也沒有，

我懷疑他根本不當一回事，一段時間不理會我，

只是在看我會不會自己忘了離婚這回事。

我受不了了，他到底要怎麼做呢？

連離婚，也要離得這麼漠然嗎？

然而，七天之後的他，結結實實嚇了我一跳，

一早，我聽到他在客廳起床的聲音，隔著門板聽不真切，

我卻一直等不到他出去上班的關門聲。

一陣乒乒乓乓的金屬撞擊，取代了他一向安安靜靜的作息，

我終於按捺不住起身察看，卻在開門後，

聞到了一陣食物的香氣。

「起床了嗎？吃點蛋捲。」他笑著，

如新婚時我吻他之後那般淺笑。

我心裡狠狠跳了一下，原以為古井不波的情緒，

因他久違的體貼，而起了絲絲漣漪。

他還是那麼輕易的，可以撩動我的心，

我不清楚他怎麼可以混到九點、十點還不去上班，

他接收到我的疑惑，也只是淡然一笑，

身上簡單的服裝一點兒上班的氣息都沒有。

可能他，也有工作疲乏吧！

也可能他要宣判了，關於那張離婚協議書，

看他神色自若的樣子，我默默吃著早餐，

幻想著等一下他會說的話。

他會不會乾脆的就離婚了呢？還是在我面前撕了協議書呢？

不可否認的，我的心，傾向後者。

「我升上經理了。」他的第一句話，出乎我意料，

下一句話，卻馬上進入重點，轟得我措手不及，

「工作上的事告一段落，現在要好好處理家裡的事。」

工作是排在家庭之前嗎？我苦笑。

「工作安頓好，我才能給妳安定的家。」

他像在解釋我的疑惑。

「所以，告訴我為什麼要離婚呢？」

他終於問了，臉色變得嚴肅。

他從來沒有用過這種質疑的口氣與我說話，

望著他難得的厲色，我竟一句話也說不出來。

「妳覺得我冷淡妳了嗎？」

轉眼，他的態度忽而又變得自嘲，

弄得我丈二金剛，「我就知道妳一個人在家老是胡思亂想。」

我和他長談了一整天，數個小時的談話，

有五分之四的時間我是在哭的，

因為我覺得自己犯了一個滔天大錯，

可是有些事，沒有那張離婚協議書，我永遠不會知道。

他說，五年來，他確實每天都是抱著我醒來，

只是後來他工作忙，起床時間變早，而我仍沈睡著，

不知道罷了，有時他還會親親我的臉，看著我貪懶的睡顏，

他不忍心叫醒我。

而擺在盥洗室的漱口杯，

他根本搞不清楚小叮噹是他的或Hello Kitty才是他的，

他以為粉紅色是女孩子的頻色，

所以他一直用著小叮噹的嗽口杯。

原來，我們一直在無形間，做著親密的唇齒交流，

可憐了Hello Kitty，擺在那兒沒人用，成了個裝飾品。

早餐，他吃的都是7-11，他承認很想念我做的早餐，

可是他不好意思要我每天做給他，

他知道我會擠盡ㄔ霰靰廒芊A他捨不得看我太累。

「我娶妳，是希望妳享福，不是要妳來當女傭的。」

從他這句話開始，我便止不住眼淚。

提到他的衣著，他更是笑我的傻，

他看得出來我會為他添新衣服，

按顏色花樣在櫃裡整整齊齊的分類擺放，

而新婚時期我常幫他搭配，

久了他也知道我的喜好，什麼領帶配什麼衣服，

他是為我而穿。

至於熱情的早安吻，每天他早在我熟睡間給我了，

我卻兀自鑽牛角尖，認為他不需要我的吻。

「你為什麼從不說你愛我呢？」我噙著淚水問他。

「我以為妳知道，否則我們為什麼結婚呢？」

他理所當然回答。

是啊！我知道，我一直都知道，不然我不會嫁給他的，

可是既然知道，我又何必強求他說出來呢？

女人都是需要一些愛語滋潤的，我想這就是理由，

看著我控訴的眼光，我想他也知道理由了。

「妳做的大菜，很好吃可是那些菜費工夫，

也不全是妳喜歡的，

所以我寧可妳做些簡單的菜，最好是妳也喜歡吃。」

他一句一句的解釋，又讓我掉了一缸淚水，

「妳不喜歡吃辣，因此我要妳少放辣椒，妳不吃內臟，

那我也不吃，妳怕胖，所以料理時我希望油加少一點，

醬油鹽份高，吃多腎臟負擔大，為了妳我健康著想，

調味即可，不必加太多。」

只要是我煮的，他都喜歡，想想每次準備食物給他，

他沒有一次不是吃光的，

到底為什麼我會覺得抓不住他的胃呢？

所以，我也抓住了他的心嗎？

另一件令我驚訝的事，

他真的知道台灣霹靂火的男主角是誰，即使猜得不完全正確。

「是劉文聰嗎？還是那個李正賢呢？

晚上在公司加班，同事都會開電視來看，

所以我多少也知道一點。」他撫去我臉上淚痕，

笑問：「妳也在看嗎？」

「嗯。」我又想哭了，我真是小覷了那個節目的收視率。

「當上經理之後會比較少加班，那我們就一起看。」

他說得輕鬆，我卻鼻頭一陣酸楚。

我在意的，其實不是看什麼節目，管他行政院長、

立法院長是誰，沒有他在身邊，看什麼都索然無味。

我發現，只要願意，兩個人什麼事都可以談，

連我跟他解釋台灣霹靂火的劇情，一路聊到整容話題，

他也聽得津津有味。

是我，是我封閉了自己，以為他不願意聽我說話、

不願意對我說話。

他心疼我一個人在家裡，聊公司裡的事怕悶壞我，

又見我一副不想搭理他的樣子，他每天只能摸摸一鼻子的灰。

無論他跟我說什麼，我都是愛聽的，

可是我現在才讓他知道，

夫妻兩浪費了幾年的時間在這種誤解之間打轉，

他活該，我也活該。

「我很少看新聞，都不知道國家最近發生了什麼事。」

我這句話出口得有些抱怨。

「好，我以後每天當妳的新聞台。」他溫柔的笑了。

聊到生孩子的事，他先是一陣默然。

「我想生一個孩子。」這時候，我有勇氣說出口了。

「我以為妳不想，剛結婚那一陣子，

妳不是一直吃避孕藥嗎？」難得聽到他有些怪罪的語氣。

進一步了解之後，我才發現，他一直知道我在吃藥，

或許是我哪次把藥隨便擱在化粧台上，被他看到了，

他徹底了解我不想要孩子。

而他也知道，我吃完藥隔天會有水腫的現象，

身子骨纖細的我，一雙腳腫得跟象腿一樣，

也只有我這種人的鴕鳥心態，才會認為他不會發現。

後來我養成習慣將藥好好放在抽屜中，

他以為我不再吃，怕身子水腫難受，所以他戴起保險套，

說來說去，還是為了我。

「妳又水腫了嗎？一直哭個不停，

是想把身體裡的水逼出來嗎？」

他居然敢揶揄我，免不了得到我飽以老拳。

他還是想要孩子的，聽完我說想生孩子，

他眼下興奮的光芒大大的告訴我這一點。

只不過，那抹光芒在閃爍之後隨即斂去，

他又正襟危坐的問了我一個問題。

「妳真的想生嗎？」

「想啊！我一個人在家好無聊。」

「只是因為無聊嗎？如果一個人在家無聊，

妳想出去學東西、去工作、和朋友去逛街，我不會阻撓妳。」

「你不是也想嗎？」我生氣了，縱然淚眼婆娑沒什麼說服力。

他開始說起那個四千兩百公克的巨嬰，

原來那名女性朋友的經驗不僅嚇到我，也嚇到他了。

他不希望我生孩子還要受極大的痛苦，

什麼剖腹產、自然產，他一點概念也沒有，

只知道一定會很痛，

他明白我怕痛，所以他捨棄了生孩子的想法。

「我不管，我要生。」明瞭了他的想法後，

我更希望替他生一個孩子，身體裡流著我和他血液的孩子。

「那就生吧！」他悄悄的在我耳邊說了一句令我臉紅的話。

「你這麼有精力，不是上班很累嗎？」

我狐疑他話裡的真實性。

經他解釋，我才恍然大悟，就算工作累，

他偶爾也有慾望，有時晚上摟著我，又看我睡得香甜，

這種看得到吃不到的痛苦，他只能鬱鬱的悶在自己心裡，

面對他的心意，我，真的無言了。

在我像兩顆水蜜桃的雙眼略為消腫後，

他催我換衣服，帶我出門。

已經好久沒和他一起出遊了，在兩人間的冷淡破冰後，

坐在他身邊竟也給我當初戀愛的感覺。

我凝望著他專心駕駛的側臉，將他的動作姿態深深刻在心裡，

因為我差點忘了，我和他之間還橫著一個問題，

那張離婚協議書。

我要一輩子記住他的模樣，如果他最後仍是簽了名，

可是，他應該不會簽吧！

否則，他何必和我討論生孩子的事。

「到了。」他停車，我也隨之下車。

海風迎面吹來，是淡水。

他也記得這個地方，這個我們記憶珍藏的地方。

「我一直想帶妳來，可是妳假日都和朋友出門，

我只好蒙著棉被在家睡覺。」他如此說道。

這是個什麼烏龍呢？

我體諒他工作累，他體諒我和朋友出門，

就這樣我們錯過了，一次又一次的相伴。

「你以後想幹什麼，可以直接說。」我惱火的盯著他。

「妳也是。」他正經八百的回視我，

言下之意是要我別五十步笑百步。

說來也好笑，我們一直認為自己是在為對方著想，

以自己的方式去體貼對方，

這種自以為是卻導致了無數個陰錯陽差，

一直到我開始懷疑自己不愛他，他也不愛我了，

才驚覺這份愛並不是消逝，而是溶入了生活之中，

自然的讓人忘了它的存在。

愛情的表現，可以是黏膩、親熱、奉獻、祝福，

甚至是退讓，每個人的方式不同，會導致的結果各異。

我的方式是盲目的付出，他的方式是全然的關懷，

乍看之下兩個人都沒錯，可是無論什麼方式，

中間少了一種叫「溝通」的元素，就容易導致裂痕。

我們的婚姻，就是建築在這種缺乏溝通的空中樓閣之上，

嫁給這個男人五年了，我以為我漸漸的不愛他，

但只是一番簡單的剖白心意，

我對他所有的愛再度復活，甚而轉濃。

女人會因男人長久的冷落而對愛情失望，

也可以因男人一句話又對愛情充滿希望，

我不想和他離婚，一點兒也不想，

當初硬著頭皮簽下名，或許只是賭氣，

只是要他正眼看看我。

可是 ……

「那、那張離婚協議書……。」我要收回來。

「在公司裡。」他好整以暇，「公司的碎紙機裡。」

這個意思是… …？

「妳想離婚，等我成為亡夫時再說吧！」

我估量不出他說這句話，

是不是在開玩笑，不過他又騙到我的淚水。

他真的很愛我，即使他沒有說過，我想如果我堅持離婚，

他會放我走的，他捨不得見我難過，

就像他見我掉淚又趕快摟住我一樣。

倘若，是他想離婚呢？

恕我自私，我是堅決不會放的，除非等我變成亡妻，

同樣因為他捨不得見我難過，我自信可以留住他。

「淡水整個都變了，我都快不認識了。」

哄完了我，他連忙帶開話題。

「我來過，我知道有什麼景點。」

「那這次就要靠妳帶路囉！」

是啊！我們可以開創新的回憶，只要有我也有他，

什麼時間地點都不成問題。

結婚五年，

我又發現了一次愛情。

_____________________________________________________________

Mood's Playing: Elisa's Dancing

Touching Videos

2009-06-18T13:32:00.002+08:00

Some really nice & touching videos to share with you guys while I take my time to update this space...

This is my favourite one.. i tear when i reach the end....

Mood's Playing: Frankie J's Don't Wanna Try

bad day

2009-06-12T12:21:00.003+08:00

@#%(@*&#*%(*)^$%#()%!...

it's just one of those disgusting days of the month again....

Mood's Playing: 谢和弦's 虽然很芭乐

post bday post

2009-06-10T11:40:00.008+08:00

Today is exactly 1 week after my birthday. I hope you guys are keen to find out how I spent that special day. =)

I took half day off from work and went to meet my dearest one and only darling! He was bringing me to Kallang to ice-skate! (er.. fine, I was the one who suggested to go skating…)

Anyway, we took the shuttle bus from Kallang station to the new Kallang entertainment center. It was a weekday so the place was pretty much like a dead town… we had our lunch at the food court and the serving of the food was humongous! Left both of us feeling very bloated after that.

We went up to the ice-skating place and were initially kinda ‘petrified’ to go in cus there were like quite a few not-too-bad skaters around and we were not so sure if we really want to ma lu ourselves… I even thought of “why not we just catch a movie and skip the ice-skating part…” Lol

Anyway, we managed to pluck up our courage and went into the skating rig!

Mi in the shuttle bus cam-whoring! (only mi & dear in the bus with the driver.. haha..)

He kept playing with my gloves... i got this gloves when i was in sec? or was it poly time...?

Yea! We are going skating~~

Dear trying to tie his laces..

Tada! The skating ring~

Surfacing of ice at 4pm....vroom vroom~

while waiting for the surfacing of ice...dear said my hands look small.. yes.. i think they are short and fat...

this is supposed to be some very nice pic but somhow the gloves made it look comical...i keep thinking we are some durian sellers... haha

This is my ice skating shoes!

Dear trying to act cool and balance...

Yea! I'm a better skater than him... haha

Happy birthday to me! haha

this is what my dear gave me for my bday present! haha.. i told him before i like kinder surprise.. haha

Our dinner @ Soup Spoon. Both of us were still rather full so we share our food..

Next surprise! My REAL bday present! Can you guess what it is...?

me: "hmm.. wondering what he bought for me..?"

him: "hmm.. she look so silly i dun think she can guess it..."

Tadaaa! It's Samsung OMNIA!!!! Thank you dear!

Post bday..

i had a hard time getting used to OMNIA cus it's a window OS phone... but now i'm starting to love it cus i can download alot of games! hahaha... oOps...

Mood's Playing: Ailin's Wo Hai Shi Bu Dong

Vote for Audris

2009-06-01T15:17:00.002+08:00

Dear All,

For some of you who have been following my news, you should know who Audris Ho is. Yes, she's the keyboardist whom I've worked with for my 2 performances with Replugged Music. =)

Anyway, she is a really talented musician and recently she just participate in an online song composition. Please do click on the below link and give her your support ok!

http://www.songsiwrite.com/media.asp?id=songs-4607

Thank you!

Yours Sincerely,
ParadiseoFools

Mood's Playing: Ai Qing Niang De Jiu

最浪漫的事 - 赵咏华

2009-05-29T16:20:00.003+08:00

最浪漫的事 - 赵咏华

背靠着背坐在地毯上
听听音乐聊聊愿望
你希望我越来越温柔
我希望你放我在心上

你说想送我个浪漫的梦想
谢谢我带你找到天堂
哪怕用一辈子才能完成
只要我讲你就记住不忘

我能想到最浪漫的事
就是和你一起慢慢变老
一路上收藏点点滴滴的欢笑
留到以后坐着摇椅慢慢聊
我能想到最浪漫的事
就是和你一起慢慢变老
直到我们老的哪儿也去不了
你还依然把我当成手心里的宝

I should have got this entry out earlier but guess cus i was sick so din managed to do so.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------

5 years has passed since we got together
Smiles.Tears.Love.Sad
Hope.Darkness.Happy.Unhappy.
From the carefree poly life to the pressurized working society now
So many so many things happened between us
So much so that I always feel that we are caught in our own complicated drama shows
We have our down times and of course our happy times
Remembered I did a ad-hoc quiz with you 2 -3 years ago
I asked if you remembered when our first kiss was
You surprised me by giving me the exact answer as what I had
I thought guys never make an effort to remember such thing

I’m glad I don’t remember when our first quarrel was or what it was about
Do you?
I thought unhappy memories are harder to remove than happy ones
I know we had many mini squabbles and some really nonsense quarrels
I’m certainly not hoping for more to come but I’m sure a few are inevitable
I hope we can be more open with each other and not pretend there’s nothing and it’s ok
I’ve come to realise that trust and understanding is very important in a relationship

Maybe love is like the stock market
It’s volatile and not easy to predict
Fundamentals are very important but so is technical analysis
We need to know when to give in and when to hold on
There are times we take risk and make a gamble
If we are lucky, we’ll win
If not, hide away and wait for your courage to come back before trying again
Or will you move on and try again?

Love is indeed not an easy art to master

I don’t know much about love but I know it’s you
There was once you fell asleep lying on my lap
As I sat there watching you sleep
I felt very fortunate and I think that's love
I hope we can be the each other's 1st person to see when we wake up from sleep
I look forward to preparing the most important meal of the day for you everyday
I want you to give me a goodnight kiss on my forehead everynight
I request for a hug from you whenever I am feeling upset
I promise I'll hug you back too even if I'm mad at you

It's only 5 years since we got together
We still have alot to learn and alot to love
I'm really glad that it's you I'm in love with and I hope you feel the same too
Dear,
Thank you for loving me.

I love you too!

Mood's Playing: 最浪漫的事 - 赵咏华

2009 縱貫線 SUPER BAND 新加坡演唱會

2009-05-27T13:36:00.003+08:00

Super Band Singapore Concert 2009
2009 縱貫線 SUPER BAND 新加坡演唱會

http://www.supersuperband.com/

Oh my! Finally they are coming to Singapore! I'm really kinda interested to go but the concert is on 18 Jul and my company's inaugural event is also on that day! How to go....? Hope they add another day... but then it's not cheap and who can i ask to go with me....

I really think they ARE the superband.

Mood's Playing: 縱貫線''s 亡命之徒

Plants VS Zombies

2009-05-25T14:20:00.003+08:00

Yesterday me and my dear spent 4 hrs sitting in front of the computer playing this game called "Plants VS Zombies".

A group of zombies are trying to attack and come into my house and we're supposed to plant the many types of plants to defend off and kill the zombies. The game is simple and and cute cus the plants are all very cute! Esp. the mushrooms series! Haha...

We didn't complete the game cus it was already 7pm by the time we played about 30 stages... think we will continue to complete it on weekend. =)

Oh ya, there are all sorts of interesting zombies too! Got dancing zombies! hahaa....

If you are interested, i think the game can be downloaded on www.popcap.com.

Have fun!

Mood's Playing: aiLin - Wo Hai Shi Bu Dong

sunday movie sat watch

2009-05-16T22:59:00.002+08:00

The story goes like this...

I told him "let's go catch Angels & Demons this sat @ The Cathay" and he said "Ok". He bought the tix online and so we planned our Sat date.

Sat came and we went over to The Cathey to collect the tix. He passed his credit card to the counter girl and she gave us the tix.

4.20pm. We decided to go into the cinema earlier though the show was only supposed to start at 4.40pm. I passed the tix to the staff who was in charge of checking our tix and he took it and tear off the sides and then passed the tix back to us.

We strolled into the cinema and realised that we were really early as we were the 3rd and 4th person in the cinema. He told me he booked the special seats i.e couple seats and so we looked for our seats and happily sinked into the seats.

The show started on time but the audience were slow to enter. Perhaps most of them thought that most cinemas don't start on time thus didn't made any effort to come in early. The show was going for almost 20mins+ when seats in our row started to fill up.

This was when the off-screen drama was about to begin. Two ladies came in to the cinema, headed for our row and begin to ask if the seats beside us were wrongly taken up.

Well, nope. The guys got their seats correctly.

So they asked if WE took their seats by mistake. We took out our tix and said "No, our seats are _09 & _10." The guys related our replies to the ladies.

The 2 ladies were baffled as their tix were also _09 & _10. They made some comments and then went out of the cinema.

Moments later. They returned with one of the cinema staff and asked for our tix again. This time round, he was quite annoyed so he went out of the cinema with them to sort it out. He returned shortly and told me that the cinema had made some mistake because there this grp of ppl who made grp booking for that row and apparently the system corked up so we managed to book our tix as well. But since we came first and have paid for the tix, let's just continue with our show.

Alas, minutes later, the staff returned again asking for our tix and he decided to go out again to trash it out with them. When he next returned back to the cinema, he told me to take my bag and get out of the cinema with him.

This was when I finally realised what was going on....

Apparently our tix was for the same movie, same timing BUT on SUNDAY and NOT SATURADAY! The person who booked the movie somehow booked the wrong date though he strongly feel that he did saw the correct date when he made the booking! Anyhow, after much 'investigation', yes, our tix were for Sun and not Sat...

Of cus, there's no way I'm (or maybe we) gg to admit that it's our full fault cus shouldn't the staff at the check point realised our tix were for the wrong date and stop us from entering the cinema then? This way, we wouldn't have sat on someone else's seats and we wouldn't have wasted almost 45mins on the show that we couldn't finished and we wouldn't have wasted our money!

Well well... thank goodness the mgr was very nice and understanding so he gave us a pair of complimentary pass so that we can use it for our next movie. Needless to say, I quickly pulled him out of the building and we decided to venture away from the area in case we see those people in the cinema and make ourselves so ma lu....

Oh ya, it was also very paiseh for me cus at one point when he was out of the cinema negotiating with the staff, the guy seating beside me actually tried to explain & apologise to me that the cinema made a mistake becus of some double booking problem and thus creating so much inconveniences. OMG! I hope he'll nv find out the truth of this incident cus I think if he does, he's so going to KP me...

Btw, to protect the 'face' of the main culprit of the above embarassing episode, i've did not named him here. haha... ;p

On a happier note (actually the above was really hilarious and i think i can tease him for some time on that.. haha), we went to esplanade to catch some free performances at the outdoor theatre and there were 2 kids who created so much entertainment for me!

The band was playing really rock and hard on stage and the two little boys who obviously do not know each other (one was i think french and another chinese) started to dance to the music and each of them were pretending to be the drummer & the guitarist! Oh my, they were really very cute and it was such a funny sight to see them 'drumming' and 'strumming' with the music! Too bad i didn't video them down!

What a day it has been today... =)

Mood's playing: Wonder Girls' Nobody

SSO - Faust

2009-05-13T10:46:00.003+08:00

Ok. I really should update something else since i've already blogged abt my taipei's trip...

I went for a ‘high-class’ concert on the 1st Sat of May with Eik Chyun and Ant. The tix were proudly sponsored by our bride-to-be aka Eik Chyun. Apparently it was supposed to be her hubby and his bro who were supposed to go with her but due to some poor planning, me and ant had the honor to replace them instead. =)

The concert was titled “Faust” and was performed by Singapore Symphony Orchestra together with Singapore Symphony Chorus, Singapore Bible College Chorale, Hallelujah Chorus, Singapore Symphony Children’s Choir & 4 other vocalists, each performing their role as a mezzo-soprano, tenor, bass & bass-baritone.

It was really an interesting experience for me cus I’ll never expect myself to buy tickets for such concert and I had actually thought that I would sleep through the concert. Our dear sponsor didn’t really tell us what the concert was about and I only knew it was some SSO thingy so I thought it would be rather bored (though I was from Chinese orchestra but I think if you want me to sit through a 3hr concert listening to symphony, I’ll fall asleep lo!) but thankful that there were some choir and of course the vocalists were also entertaining because they were not just singing but they were like using their singing to act out the show and of course with the compliments of some actions and facial expression! There were some really funny parts which made the 3 of us laugh and of course we also saw a few other weird ppl who actually sleep throughout the show….

Tried to take some photos but we weren’t allowed to do so within the hall… but still ant did tried to snap a few la.. haha.. all photos are with the other 2 ladies so waiting for them to update their blogs…

Fast forward.

My bro finally entered NS! Too bad I couldn’t go with him to Tekong…. Really want to see how tekong looks like.. haha.. he came home last fri after his 2 weeks confinement. Ok la. I could get used to his botak head and abit tanned skin. Din really see him much cus most of the time he was out with his gf and I was out with my bf. Haha….reminds of ‘my’ NS days with dear dear…lol

was really tempted to go for the AQH auditions but alas the slots for 11 May were all taken up and the next available date is on 20th May and very 'lucky' me has got to work on that day due to some event so i guess it's fated that I shouldn't go for the auditions. Anyway, i had fun practising with dear for the auditions... it's been so long since he really played the guitar and i sang.... =)

i hope we can do this more often. Pighead! Go learn more songs! haha

Mood’s singing: 林俊杰&金莎 - 被风吹过的夏天

Taiwan's trip

2009-04-27T15:20:00.004+08:00

Finally! Time to update on my Taiwan's trip!

Where: Taipei
When: 17 April - 21 April 2009
Who: Me, Jenielle, Krist, Puay Son & Gene

我们起飞啦！Still looking fresh ya.. haha

抵达目的地！
前往豪景酒店的途中。。。
our first meal! Beef Noodles!
the bubble tea shop that my sis visit everyday!
Dancing at OMA!

(that guy in red is LABA of Freaky Klown!yeaa!)

华视...'命中注定我爱你'的明道was sitting inside the bus!

Dancing at Merry Monarc!

在五分埔的‘血拼’。。。

仿佛一直都在梦游的Krist...
tis is a 'scary' shop, the 4 of them practically went in and out of this shop continously just buying socks and socks and leggins...spent almost 1hr in this shop!

西门丁是我的！

'不能说的秘密' - Mr Jay's 意法厨房 (耳边是不是仿佛听到了主题曲的前奏？)

试图想要'混'进划画里与杰伦一起弹琴

吃饱后走向Taipei 101
茫茫人海中...

brunch @ 咖哩世界

似画非画？

what do the twins do when they are resting at 7-11...?ans: cam whore!

eating and eating and eating....

do we look like we're in tokyo? haha

View from our hotel

KTV!!!!

it was a great night! all of us were mad! Gene was worse! haha... so much fun!! lalala

Famous 阿宗面线 (but not very nice leh)

I got a new found friend! Introducing *drum roll* Mr GaGa!

oOps. Mr GaGa caught Krist sleeping again!
err.. I think Mr GaGa was jus being abit hungry...

友情客串: this is supposed to be a pressie for zx...

tis woman can really sleep....there are more of her slpin pics jus tt i din upload... Tada! Mood's Playing: 陈绮真- 旅行的意义

我回来了！

2009-04-22T12:05:00.001+08:00

我回来了！

World Voice Day

2009-04-16T10:27:00.003+08:00

Source: http://www.ttsh.com.sg/new/events/public.htm

If you happened to pass by TTSH between 11am - 3pm later, please come support us (Replugged Music)! I'll be doing the 2pm - 3pm slot. Singing Yu Jian and Fly me to the Moon!

Oh right.. i'm feeling damn jittery now... nervous....

good luck fion~

Mood's Singing: Sun Yan Zi's Yu Jian~

Good Fri + Long weekend

2009-04-13T15:00:00.002+08:00

Fri I’ll be flying to Taipei. This time round, I’m not going with my dear and neither am I travelling alone… I’m going with my bunch of sisters (3 non blood related & 1 real one to be exact!)!

Somehow it still hasn’t sink into me that I’m flying off soon… I haben pack anything. Haben change the money. Haben plan the itinerary. Work is very stress and I feel really kinda bad to leave at this point of time to enjoy myself… but oh well…hopefully things will be ok when I return..

Last week was the long weekend… wanted to go night safari cus my mgr wanted to pass me the free tix but cus of the ‘mischievous’ rain, i was fooled and in the end, din managed to go to the safari! But a good thing is that I finally bought my black frame specs! Haha… yippee!

I felt like a pig for the long weekend cus all that I could really remember was jus sleeping, eating and eating sleeping. Well, dear and I did attempt to bake and at least the banana cake din turn out to be a disaster! Actually… I made a mistake in the ingredient but din tell dear (in fact he still doesn’t know but he will after he read this entry… =X ) I bought corn flour instead of cake flour! Haha… but well… it’s still edible… =p

Dear cooked spaghetti for me. He is so cute la.. haha…but the portion abit too much for me.. I think he really think I’m a pig or he is trying to transform me into one…oink oink~

Oh ya! This coming thur is World Voice Day and Replugged is invited to do a performance at TTSH! I’m very honored that they are giving me this chance to perform and I hope I can do a good job! Will be singing 2 english songs (one duet). Hope I can do it cus I’m really not good at ang moh songs… jia you !!!

Will update again then~ Cheers

Mood’s Playing: Fly Me to the Moon

Hair Dying!

2009-03-31T11:29:00.004+08:00

On Sat I told dear that I want to color his hair for him and surprisely he actually said ok. So Sun we went to buy the hair dye... i wanted blonde or ash grey but he resisted strongly... so it's just the boring brown color again... =p

See... i'm so happy to be his hair stylist! haha

Don't look so scare leh... mi pro one.. =)
Serious k...

he must be thinking why he agree to let me do this.. lol
tadaa!!

Finally... after leaving it to 'absorb' the color for around 20 mins... the hair has successfully transformed from....

Before!

After!!
I'm good la... at least i think so...haha...

Mood's Playing: 方大同-为你写的歌

天冷就回来

2009-03-26T11:46:00.002+08:00

<<天冷就回来 >>

从前对着收音机
学唱旧的歌
我问妈妈为什么
伤心像快乐
妈妈笑着
说她也不懂得
我想出去走一走
妈妈点点头
天冷你就回来
别在风中徘徊
妈妈眼里有明白
还有一丝无奈
天冷我想回家
童年已经不再
昨天的雨点洒下来
那滋味叫做爱
Wu...
别在风中徘徊
Wu...
天冷就回来

渐渐对着收音机
学唱新的歌
我问朋友为什么
做梦也快乐
朋友笑说
他从不相信梦
我想出去走一走
朋友点点头
天冷你就回来
别在风中徘徊
朋友的眼里有明白
还有一份期待
天冷我想回家
年少已经不再
今天的雨点洒下来
那滋味就是爱

现在对着收音机
听自己唱的歌
我的他问为什么
幸福不快乐
我微笑着
说我也不懂得
他想出去走一走
我对他点点头
天冷你就回来
别在风中徘徊
我猜我眼里有明白
还有一丝无奈
天冷他没回家
我仍然在等待
明天的雨点洒下来
那滋味就是爱
Wu...
别在风中徘徊
Wu...
天冷就回来

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the musical is starting soon in Apr... the title of the musical reminded me of Kit Chan, my all time favourite singer... she is really good and i really admire her alot! Been listening to all her old songs and recalling the past when i was in CLS... when my dear always play his guitar and i sing along... besides the above, i was also in love with the song 走出黑暗的世界... Awww.. i really miss those days....

can i take my singing up the next level?

Mood's Playing: Kit Chan's 走出黑暗的世界

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2009-03-24T16:06:00.002+08:00

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我又初恋了

2009-03-16T10:19:00.003+08:00

It has been an eventful week for me. A rollar coaster ride of emotions...almost felt as if i was acting in some idol drama series...

my ending song for the show...

五月天 - 我又初恋了
曲:怪兽词:阿信

每一次从爱里离开
就像是心被切一块
切一块
下次再也不敢放胆爱
谁知道主歌才一半
桥段都还没唱出来
就突然
你的出现爆破了悲哀
难道我又我又初恋了
不可能我又我又初恋了
可是真的真的初恋了
这一种feel
我又真的真的初恋了
我爱你你爱我
我们再也找不到藉口
就像是第一次
一起飞著爱情的自由
我爱你你爱我
我们再也不需要藉口
又一次初恋了
就算降讲有一点荒谬
谁在乎喔

我吃了铁牛运功散
因为我内伤好犀利
好犀利
你的魔力真的好犀利

Mood's Playing: 五月天 - 我又初恋了

fri the 13th

2009-03-13T11:58:00.002+08:00

i'm really blessed to have your love.

thank you dear.

i love you.

and also thank you for my group of friends who have showned me so much concern these days. i'm really touched.

without you all, i'm just nothing...

thank you....

mood's playing: 卓文萱 - 掌心

all out of love

2009-03-10T09:15:00.000+08:00

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile and my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

I 'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I 'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from this long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone

Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?

I 'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I 'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

End of Feb

2009-03-02T17:41:00.002+08:00

Gosh, I feel that I haven’t been sleeping properly for the past few weeks…

Work, dance, rehearsals… I seem to be always making myself pack from sun rise to sun set and moon rise to moon set… I think I must be wasting my money on all the eye cream product cus my eye bags and dark circles has no time for recovery… =’(

I finally bought my high cut shoes!! My dream color combi! Black & Purple! I bought it online..ordered on a Tue and I received it on Fri! All the way from New York! That was really efficient… the price is abit pricey though (ard S$200) but I think ok la.. since I don’t really buy shoes often… anyway, Yipee! New shoes!!! Haha

There are a thousand and one things on my ‘to-buy’ list but I just don’t have the time to get them…looks like online shopping seems like a great way to solve my headache but then again, some of the things can’t be bought online…

KTV! Yesh! I miss KTV! Since CNY, I haven’t stepped into one…can someone date me…? Hmm…. but probably only available on Fri or Sat nights after 8pm… sianz…

another thing.. we've finalised our taiwan trip!! Yay! Yay! Yay! 17 - 21 April 2009. It was really not easy finalising this trip but we did it! Defintely looking forward to it and going to start doing the research on which dance studios to try and how to get tickets to Yu Le Bai Fen Bai so that I can see my idol - Xiao Zhu - in person! The only thing I think I'll suffer when I go taiwan is i'll miss dear dear... though he pretended to be nonchalance about it but i think he is feeling abit disappointed that i'm not going with him... sorry dear... let me go with my friends this time round ok. Anyway, absence makes the heart fonder.. so perhaps you will love me more then.. haha.. =x

Got to run for prac again...

damn.. it's raining again.....

Mood’s Playing: 迷路兵’s 世界麻烦借过一下

真的，我没事

2009-02-18T16:08:00.002+08:00

This is a really nice song which I've been searching for ever since I heard it on 篮球火... v touching song...

真的，我没事
主唱:符致逸

On and on, the pain goes on
And it wouldn't just wouldn't die
我竟远比想像中软弱旦无能为力
对你的眼神选择了逃避恨自己恨自己
On and on, the pain lives on
It's hurting so much more
就像我被悔不当初的罪恶吞去
惩罚过后能否带来解脱 I'll be fine I'll be fine

So many cried, listening to God
让坚强不只是种伪装
So many lies, listening to you
天亮后 I will be fine

On and on, the pain goes on and
I just don't know how to cope
伸手抱住自己是否就能够不再空虚
最后信念别放弃 I will be fine I will be fine

So many cries, listening to you 希望你能再给我力量
So many lies, listening to you什么时候 I will be fine

当我再也不对任何事期待只剩下你只剩下你
有天当我舍弃一切见你请你要微笑不语

So many cries, listening to you希望你能再给我力量
So many lies, listening to you什么时候 I will be fine

Mood's Playing: 符致逸 's 真的，我没事

Tagged...

2009-02-18T12:17:00.002+08:00

I'm being tagged...

1. What have you been doing recently?
Other than work, it should be dancing and you-tubing

2. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
Yes. At times when I feel like ‘disappearing’ from the world

3. What happened at 10am today?
I was eating my Fan Choy and checking my email

4. When did you last cry?
I can’t rem…

5. Believe in fate/destiny?
Destiny

6. What do you want in your life now?
Money! Though money is really not the most important thing in my life but I must admit that we really can’t do without it…

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
If the rain is not heavy, I’ll use my jacket

8. What's your favourite thing to do on the bed?
Ooohhh.. Lol… Sleep and hug my bloster

9. What bottoms are you wearing now?
A pair of office black pants

10. What's the nicest things in your inbox?
You mean my email or hp? There’s nth really nice in my email…as for hp, should be the sweet sms-es frm dear

11. Do you tend to make your relationship complicated?
Maybe… I’m not a simple person… =X

12. Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
Nope

13. What was the last movie you caught?
Red Cliff 2

14. What are you proud of?
My bravery in attempting to trim or cut my hair

15. What does the oldest text msg in your inbox say?
Again? Please refer to qn 10

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
Almost Lover – I sang it during my vocal class last night

17. Do you have any nicknames?
A LOT! Xiao Pang… Da bui , Ah wen, Fi-Jie

18. What does the newest text say?
Some V day sms from a friend

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
I went to bed at 12mid night but only managed to sleep around 1am

20. Are you currently happy?
Currently: 10.58am. Yes

21. Who gives you the best advice?
My dear. He gives curt but true advice.
Choon Hui – An advisor, mentor and friend to me

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
YUCKS

23. Who did you talk on the phone last night?
Dear

24. Is something bugging you now?
Yes! My fats…

25. Who was the last person to make you laugh?
My sis? We were talking abt dance and watching youtube last night

DONE!

Mood's Playing: Chris Brown - Kiss Kiss

shoes

2009-02-09T18:14:00.004+08:00

i am so totally in love with the below shoes BUT i can't have them.... WHY?

Adidas Original Superstar II TL Dot 018996 (black / rave yellow / mono sky)

- No Available Size (already combed the whole singapore.....)

Nike Court Force Hi - Stussy - Varsity Purple

No money.... it priced SGD380! Kaoz....

i seriously need a new pair of shoes but why is it so hard for me to find one that i like!!??

Sianz...

Mood's Playing: Tracy Chapman - Give Me One Reason

不是我不明白

2009-02-05T14:28:00.000+08:00

梁静茹&卢广仲-不是我不明白
专辑：亲亲
作曲：林倛玉填词：李焯雄

Bu Shi Wo Bu Ming Bai - Liang Jing Ru

不是我不明白
这样并不算太坏
懂得爱说来无奈
来自对你亏待
美可以掩埋
没对他坦白
你还在

会进来吗
你在送我回家我还在猜测
那都是真的吗
再见面前
一直想象还有某种关联
但客气是拒绝
新的朋友
不在终点
你的世界
我在对岸

不是我不明白
这样并不算太坏
能再次关怀
时间洗刷所有的不愉快
后来的爱
我们尝试去款待
懂得爱说来无奈
来自对你亏待
美可以掩埋
没对他坦白
你还在

没说分手
终于是能开玩笑的朋友
不是不难过
多少年了
我想过能和你一起老的
却都有别人了
新的朋友
不在终点
我的世界
你在对岸

不是我不明白
有些我没说出来
能再次关怀
时间洗刷所有的不愉快
后来的爱
我们尝试去款待
懂得爱说来无奈
来自对你亏待
美可以掩埋
没对他坦白
你还在

不是我不明白
说被爱并不应该
我们的关怀
像爱但又说不上爱
没有后来
我们才学会爱
但现在说来感慨
不是那个未来
我们说好的
不会更改的你会在

This is a very touching song… I want to sing this song…!

Mood’s Playing: 梁静茹&卢广仲-不是我不明白

funkamania

2009-02-02T11:20:00.001+08:00

Funkamania’s over.

Congrats to Poppers Action Party for coming in 2nd! You guys really stood out in the competition but Pink Dollar$ was even more ‘outstanding’… reminds me of Whatever B in Taiwan.. lol

I didn’t really like the whole battle cuz I felt it was abit too unfriendly… oh ya, I also think it’s a pity that the 18 and below din come cus I really don’t recall anyone checking our IDs and obviously if I’m only 16 years old, no one will know and I’ll still get to watch the dance at front row! Wel wel.. I’m not angry angry but jus feel abit unjust for those who are under 18 but had wished so badly to come…

Dear started new job today! Hope this new job will bring him more joy and satisfaction as compared to his past jobs. He might not be able to spare most of his Sat for me though but never mind, I can go dance! Lol…. Maybe I can lose more fats and he’ll be a happier man. hAHa….

My sore throat is getting bad… I sound so Choon Hui now.. haha… Oops.. my voice is so raspy I just cant stand it… to think I was planning to go ktv….how to sing like this… looks like the CNY goodies are not doing me any good.. too heaty already…speaking of which, this is the 1st CNY which I didn’t get to eat a SINGLE bangawan solo’s pineapple tart! Due to recession, my sis’s company didn’t give them any hamper (hence no BS’s pineapple tart), for unknown reason, I didn’t buy and strangely, the houses that I’ve gone visiting also doesn’t have any BS’s pineapple tarts! Why….?????

Oh and did I mentioned that my nose is ‘leaking’ badly… it’s so bad that the skin on my nose is peeling cus I kept using tissue paper to blow my nose…and my complexion is getting dry these days… makes me feel so age conscious suddenly! Very depress….

Sigh

Mood’s Playing: 粱静茹 - 不是我不明白

tagged...

2009-01-28T10:21:00.002+08:00

Back to work after the CNY holidays… there’s only a few souls at work and my email network is not working therefore I’m very bored and thus I shall do the quiz which serene has happily tagged me to do so…

1: Besides your lips , where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
my forehead ba… hmm. but wait a min, my fringe always covers my forehead.. ok fine. Cheeks then~

2: How do you feel when you woke up this morning?
“Can I not go to work…?”

3: Who was the last person you took a photo with?
I think it was my little bro…

4: Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
yes.. spoiled by my dear… lol

5: Would you ever donate blood?
thought of but don’t think will do so

6: Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
Yes! A few in fact…

7: Do you want someone dead?
OMG! No la… not so evil… just hope they lost a limb.. =X

8:What does your last text message say?
“i meet you for lunch tml ok. Good night” – Lao Gong

9:What are you thinking of right now?
“Can I go home now?”

10: Do you wish someone was with you right now?
Not really cus I’m in the office…

11: What time did you go to sleep last night?
11pm!

12: Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now ?
Online

13: Is someone on your mind right now?
Yes.

14: Who was the last person to text you?
Lao Gong

10 PEOPLE TAGGED TO DO THIS QUIZ :
1. Jenielle Sis
2. Steve Bro
3. Chien Wei Cousin
4. Lihao Cousin
5. Krist Da Jie
6. PuaySon
7. ChenChin
8. Zhongxiao
9. Anthrea
10. Eik Chyun

15: Who is 2 having a relationship with?
Joniece

16: Is 3 a male or a female?
Female but she can be as rough as a male. lol

17: If 7 and 10 get together will that be a good thing?
OMG! No la… it’ll be extra-marital affair!

18: What is Number 1 studying about?
“How to be a tai-tai” Lol

19: When was the last time you had a chat with them?them?!
First 4 was CNY and the rest before CNY…

20: Is Number 4 single?
No. She’s with Ah Boon.. haha

21: Say something about Number 2.
He looks like Xiao Jing Teng… (my mgr say one..)

22: What do you think about Number 3 and 6 being together?
mission impossible

23: Describe Number 9.
Think about Xiao S and you’ll know her.

24: What will you do if Number 6 and 7 fight?
Ask them why they fight la

25: Do you like Number 8?
love hate relationship.. haha. he’s a funny guy but sometimes talk to him can vomit blood….

Done!

Mood's Playing: 潘嘉丽 - 溺爱

Moo~ Happy Ox Year!

2009-01-23T10:54:00.002+08:00

It's going to be Year of Ox in 3 days' time!

Wishing all readers and friends and passerbys a HAPPY OX YEAR! Gong Xi Gong Xi! Huat Ah!

Mood's Playing: Mariah Carey's Side Effect

CNY 2009

2009-01-21T17:31:00.003+08:00

StudioWu Open House is over and I’m still suffering from post performance hangover…. Humph~

Really thank choon hui for giving us the opportunity and I’m really glad to be able to perform her choreo and ‘train’ under her. She’s really a great mentor cum friend. I certainly look forward to another performance with her as our instructor! I also think that I am starting to use expression to dance… I used to dance with (I think) an expressionless face but ever since I went for Code Edge II and I saw Kelvin, I really think his facial emotions really help to enhance his dance movements greatly and that’s when I told myself that I need to be like him! Well, I hope I will get to perform again…

Video time!

Photos!

I like this pic.... The TEE Shirt gang!!
Do Not Disturb - Krist, Jen, Gen, PS, Fion
This guy is Mu Tong! the 933 deejay! More fotos, please go facebook
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CNY is coming and as usual, I’ve yet to buy any CNY clothing… nothing at all!! I think I need to go chiong last minute shopping on sat. Every year (esp. after I graduated from sec) during CNY period, I will hear lots of CNY songs playing and I’ll be reminded of my CO days… my pipa and all the fun practices! I think I shouldn’t have a problem playing the simple scores if I were to take out my pipa again. Ohhhh… I miss the orchestra…

Tue, i went for vocal class. Juliet took over the class as Bev was busy with her recordings. Abit jittery cus i do feel tt juliet is kinda strict and stern during class. Was feeling some butterflies in my tummy but thank god, she was v nice and encouraging! It was a fun session and some of the new warm up excerise she did was interesting too. I think it's good to have Juliet teaching once in a while cus sometimes we can be too pampered by Bev and we just lay in our comfort zone.... Awww... But i still miss the siao Bev... haha... another album laoshi! jia you!!!

Juliet said my voice is rather special....and she liken it to sandelwood..haha... she said it's kinda strong but there's gentleness within it... somewhat like sandelwood.. lol. 1st time i heard ppl comment on my voice... usually i only get feedback like it's nice or it's to sharp... never such a detailed description... well well.... it's a nice feeling anyway~

Mood’s Playing: Gong Xi Gong Xi~

yi ji mei!

2009-01-14T16:31:00.002+08:00

My latest idol!

He's got small eyes like me!!!
OHhhh.. isn't he cute! *pinch*

haha...

Mood's Singing: 篮球火 - Superman

twins

2009-01-07T10:47:00.004+08:00

Yesterday after class, the 4 of us (mi, my sis, gene and krist) were walking from SMU to Raffles City. We were somewhere near the entrance of RC when I saw a familiar face just a few steps ahead of me but his face was looking at my sis who was leading ahead of me and krist. Please refer below for a better understanding.

X: my friend
J: Jenielle G: Gene K: Krist F: Fion

Anyhow, I saw him pointing at my sis and looking puzzled and my sis jus happily walked off, ignoring him completely… The moment I saw his bewildered face, I just kept laughing even till the point when we walked past each other (note: I still did not go up to him and say hi). I knew he had mistaken my sis as me and must be thinking why am ‘I’ ignoring him…. Haha… Oh my… I thought my sis and I don’t look like each other now? I mean as we grow up, I just feel that we are looking less and less alike… so how come my friend made such a funny misunderstanding? Lol

Well well, he’s not a really close friend of mine so I guess that’s why I didn’t really chase after him to explain. I’ll just facebook him later.. lol.

Mood’s Playing: Keisha Shontella’s Focus Pon Me

1st post of 2009

2009-01-05T12:37:00.001+08:00

Welcome 2009!

Oh great. I’m trying to make myself sound as excited as possible. Hmm… perhaps I should be la. 2009 is *hopefully* going to be another year filled with significant happenings in my life. 2008 was a happy & sad year for me. I moved on to a new job, my 4th uncle left us, I stopped my keyboard lessons, my 1st dance perf with MF, my 1st dance perf with Wu, my 1st dance competition with my dear girls (aka Do Not Disturb), I flew to Bangkok with dear, performed for replugged’s original souls, my 1st countdown with the dancers (Talking about countdown, my sis still own us the photos that we took at Vivo! I want my Dasmond Koh! I want my Rui En! I wan my pics!!!)

… honestly, I don think I’ve spent my 2008 in vain. The only regret I have is that I’ve missed out much time to catch up with my other buddies (i.e. the non dance category friends...)

Looking at the crystal ball (yes, please try to visualize one k), I foresee that my 2009 should be more or as exciting as 2008. For a start, we’ll be involved with Wu’s open house. I’m definitely looking at even more dance and singing performances and if possible, one or two competitions should be nice. =) I want to travel (I know economy is bad but…) and my organisation is marking its 10th anniversary this year so we are definitely going to create a big hoo ha so… so I hope I’ll have a great 2009!

This post is short cus I had planned to upload pics of the countdown.. wel well.. till then.

Mood’s Playing: 潘嘉丽 - 限时的遗忘

Krist Beauty Nails

2008-12-29T13:41:00.004+08:00

To all readers out there! If you are interested in manicure or pedicure, please click on the below link!

http://krist-beauty-nails.blogspot.com/

My friend is currently free-lancing as a manicurist so do look for her if you are thinking of giving your nails some colors or shine this season!

Cheers!

Mood's Playing: Keisha Shontella's T-Shirt

Fion's Dec's Happening Part II

2008-12-23T14:36:00.012+08:00

Fion's Dec's Happening Part II

More fotos!

Audris - My great keyboardist!

My All-time favourite Ji Xiao Instructor - Kang Yang

Talented & Funny Sherman who sings in Jap and Irish!

Endearing Juliet with the keyboard

Sloppy but sincere guitarist - Zhao Hao
The Master 4! Very Nice Song...
Juliet singing her own composition. A v catchy song..

Bevlyn with her latest composition - Set my mind on you!

With Genenieve and her sis. I miss having class with this girl.

My current classmate - Kelvin. A lame guy. haha...

Me and the lame-est Kang Yang again... what's with the cable ard him....

And these are from the Xmas dinner... mi, krist and my sis went to TCC @ Clarke Quay

Do we look alike?

Yes... the food was off standards so we decided to show our displease..

The only dish that passed our rating - Wedges with Cheese!

Oh.. before TCC, Danny was with us to take a 'stroll' in clarke quay...They look quite compatible yar.. ahha... *krist is gg to kill me...*

I looked so pale n ugly here...

My sis and danny...

the 3 women...

I think i look tall here.. hahah.. =X

End of Fion's Dec's Happening...

Still no plans for Xmas eve or Xmas or New year.... =(

Mood's Playing: All I want for Christmas is You

Part I of Fion’s Dec’s happenings

2008-12-22T15:00:00.007+08:00

This entry shall be named Part I of Fion’s Dec’s happenings… (cus some of the fotos are left in my house’s com and thus I cant upload them – with the office comp!)

10th Dec – Dinner with Ting and Ant
Was on MC on this day but still went ahead to meet up with the 2 girls for dinner at PS. Din wan to postpone the outing cus I know if we postpone it, we would never know when we can schedule another outing… Yup, that’s how hectic our schedule are. The 3 of us always have hard time trying to meet up but we still have lotsa of fun and gossips when we are together.. hee

Each time we parted, we will yearn for the next outing but usually the next outing happens like in another 12 mths or so… lol. Anyway, we have planned for the next one already – in Jan 2009 and I’m soo gg to pray that it’ll happen.. haha…hope to see you girls again!! muAcks! Lol

18th Dec – Danz People’s Student Recital – Spotlight: It’s a Danz Affair
I’m thankful that Patrick gave me the chance to be part of this event. Thou it’s a small affair I did learnt sth out of it and of cus, knowing a lot more dancers and having more friends! Though I don’t think I did a good job (cus I forgot steps!!!!) but I was really enjoying the moment on stage and I’m really hoping to improve further! Jia You! Look forward to a bigger Danz Affair in 2009!

Patrick + Me + Francis (Pic abit blur... 'thanks' to PS.. haha)
The dancers of Summer Time - Patrick's Int Hip Hop Class
Watches given to us by Patrick! sO cute! He insisted that we wear it and dance on stage...

we were making fun of PS and the yellow flower.. lol... Mi n Zhili (new dancer friend who happens to be my DMC junior as well!)
With Karen! A tall BUT great dancer

Chii Tarng came for the perf as well! Lastly! The 3 of us with the Xmas Tree in Danz Ppl! Merry Xmas! We went to Xing Wang after the perf and i snapped a 'artistic' pic of the rabbit

19th Dec – Xmas Celebration with the dancers
Met up with sis, kang ting, krist, gene and danny (yes, the only guy!) for a nice xmas dinner on Fri. We also had a lame gift exchange – to give each other the lousiest aka most un-desirable xmas present! Lol. I had a hard time choosing the present cus I was really worried that I might get sth too lousy and make myself feel so paiseh! In the end, I totally regretted not doing so! Both my sis and I felt so xun4 after the 1st present was being unveiled! Gene had bought a box of cotton butt! OMG! That’s really ultimate la! Lol. But the cotton butt is in black color so it’s kinda special also but still… cotton butt for xmas? Lol. But I guess it’s suits Krist (the girl who got the present) as she is doing her manicure business so I guess she can find ways to use it.

Some pictures to illustrate the night’s happenings...

The Presents!

Danny with his 'Coin-Bank' from Jenielle

Danny and another of his spastic pose.. lOl

Gene with her Singing Santa Clause from Fion! Krist with her black cotton butt from Gene
Jenielle with her purse and hair clips from Krist KangTing with her Mickey Mouse Mega Cup from Danny

Fion and her 'mystery' gift from KT...

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OMG! It's the screeching chicken! Lol Happy US with our 'un-desirable' presents

20th Dec – Replugged Music’s Original Souls
Yea! Finally! After so many pracs and late nights, I’ve managed to deliver the song! I cant say it’s my best delivery cus I actually messed up some of the lyrics and I think my voice was not in its best mode BUT I don’t think I did anything that badly also… yea! Cheers! Lol… Dear video-ed the performance but I’m not sure if I can upload it on the net.. might need to seek clearance from RM or the composers first.. anyway, thank you dear and Rod for coming down. AND also Sutee and her friend! Was really touched that she made the effort to rush down and I was really surprised when she appeared in front of me at just one song before mine! Thanks gal.. I still own u a bday meet up and pressie ya… =p

Fotos will be in Part II of Fion’s Dec’s Happening.. stay tuned! Lol

Mood’s Playing: Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas

Original Souls

2008-12-11T17:20:00.003+08:00

By request.

As a few of you (mainly my avid blog followers.. lol) would have know, my music school aka Replugged will be having this showcase on 20th Dec. Below are the details for those who would like to give me and my school the support! Note: It’s FREE admission!

Original Souls

Time: 7.30pm
Date: 20 Dec 2008
Venue: The Arts House, Earshot Cafe
Free Admission!

More details please visit: http://www.theartshouse.com.sg/event_details_2008.php?id=882

FYI
Address:
Earshot Cafe
1 Old Parliament Lane
Singapore 179429

Source: http://www.earshot.com.sg/website/contact.asp

In a nutshell, Replugged will be showcasing the originals compositions by the students and there will also be some surprises by special performers! Do come down for this inspirational and enchanting music event! We (or rather I) welcome flowers! Haha…

Hope to see you on 20th!

p/s: you may RSVP on my tag board to let me know if you are coming.. lol

Mood's Playing: 范晓萱 - 我要我们在一起

Why the wedding ring should be put on the fourth finger

2008-12-02T11:24:00.001+08:00

Please follow the steps given below : As per a Chinese proverb, this is a miracle from God.

Firstly, put your palms together. Bend the centre fingers and put them together back to back (see picture).

Next, join the other fingers tips to tips

The game begins now.

Try to open your thumbs ... The thumbs represent parents. It can be opened because our parents will leave us one day.
Please join the thumbs again.

Then open the second fingers, these fingers represent brothers and sisters. They too will have their own families, and will leave us too.
Now join the second fingers again.

Next, open up the little fingers. These represent your children. Sooner or later they too will leave us as they will have their own lives to lead.
Nevertheless, join back the little fingers.

Now, try and separate the fourth fingers, on which we put our wedding ring. You will be surprised to find that it cannot be opened at all. This is because it represents husband and wife. Real love will stick together forever.

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Thumb represents parents
Second finger represents brothers & sisters
Centre finger represents own self
Fourth finger represents your partner
Last finger represents your children

Mood's Playing: Zhang Zheng Yue's Ai Wo Bie Zhou

KTV 必唱曲

2008-11-17T14:54:00.000+08:00

在这分享一些我KTV 必唱曲

1) A-Lin - 失恋无罪 (因为看了太多歌唱比赛而认识了这个歌手和这首超热门的K歌)
2) 阎伟伶 - 傻孩子 (她的歌声超棒的！好爱这首歌但它的MV有点让我惊讶。。。)
3) 神木与瞳 - 为你而活 (唱这首歌一定要站着才会HIGH！！！)
4) 许慧欣 & 刘耕洪 - 心动心痛 ( 我很喜欢这首歌男女的和声所以只要有男生会唱我就会点。。。)

我好想去K喔。。。

Mood's Playing: 阎伟伶 - 傻孩子

那首歌

2008-11-13T11:01:00.001+08:00

“当你在唱歌时，把每一句歌词当作是你在说话，之不过这些话刚好有旋律。。。”
- Bevlyn Khoo

星期二上课时，老师就说了这么一句。想一想，自从上了歌唱班，虽然学会了正确的歌唱技巧但也因为如此，变地开始在意自己在唱歌时的技巧而忘了歌曲的感动。。。

我希望在十二月二十号的‘新歌发表会’上，我能让大家感受到‘那首歌’的感动。。。

Mood's Playing's: 五月天 - 你不是真正的快乐

Original Composition!

2008-11-12T18:21:00.003+08:00

Here I am blogging cus my sister is going to be late for our appointment hence I don't want to leave the office yet...

My singing lesson has been changed to every tue at 9ampm so now i've have to rush from SMU StudioWu to Replugged at Bugis every tue...pHew~

Yday's singing was great! I sang the song which I'm supposed to perform on Replugged's showcase as well as 'Bleeding Love'. I'm so proud of myself cus i think i did a pretty good job for both songs! I'm impressed... hahaha... but somehow i think it's different when i sing with live music acompany then at KTV. I think i prefer singing live.. haha.. much more shiok!

oh ya, talk about the showcase. Last yr i sang David Tao's Ai Heng Jian Dan but i think due to my nervousness, i didn't do a up to expectation performance. This year, Replugged got the students to submit their own compositions and we'll be doing a showcase singing purely original compositions! Nah.. i'm not singing my own composition cus I couldn't get the melody for my lyrics out in time but might just send my song to another competition to see my luck.

Well, as I was saying, I'll be singing this song written by 2 other students in Replugged. After going through the song in depth with Bev yday, the song is beginning to grow in me! I really like it and i hope i can deliver a good one on the actual day of performance! It's an amazing feeling and experience to be able to be the 'original' singer of a song! =)

Singing can actually be as shiok as dancing! yAy!

Mood's Playing: 五月天 - 突然好想你

Neyo - Mad

2008-11-11T09:48:00.003+08:00

Mad - Ne-Yo

She's staring at me, I'm sitting
wondering what she's thinking
Ummm Nobody's talking, cause' talking just
turns into screaming (Oooo)
And now yes I'm yelling over her, she yelling over me,
all that that means is neither of us are listening,
and what's even worse, that we don't even
remember why we're fighting

So both of us are mad for nothing, (fighting for)
nothing, (crying for)
nothing, (oohh)

When we won't let it go for nothing, (come back for) nothing,
it should be nothing
to a love like what we got oh baby

I know some times it's gonna rain,
But baby can we make up now
cause' I can't sleep through the pain
(can't sleep through the pain)
girl I don't want to go to bed, mad at you
and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me
no I don't want to go to bed mad at you
and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me (oh noo)

Umm
and it gets me upset girl when you're constantly accusing
(asking questions like you already know)
hey we're fighting this war when both of us are losing
(this ain't the way that love is
supposed to go, whatever happened to
working it out?)
We fall into this place where you ain't backin
down, and I ain't backin down,
so what the hell do we do now?

So both of us are mad for nothing, (fighting for)
nothing, (crying for)
nothing... (oohh)

When we won't let it go for nothing, nothing,
it should be nothing
to a love like what we got oh baby

I know some times it's gonna rain,
But baby can we make up now
cause' I can't sleep through the pain
(can't sleep through the pain)
girl I don't want to go to bed mad at you
and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me
no I don't want to go to bed mad at you
and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me (oh noo)

Oh baby this love ain't gone be
perfect, (perfect perfect oh no)
And just how good it's gonna be
We can fuss and we can fight long as
everything is alright between us before
we go to sleep...

Baby we're gonna be...

Yah.... Baby....

ohhhh....ohhhh

I know some times it's gonna rain,
But baby can we make up now
cause' I can't sleep through the pain
(can't sleep through the pain)
girl I don't want to go to bed mad at you
and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me
no I don't want to go to bed mad at you
and I don't want you to go to bed, mad
at me (oh noo, nooo, noo)

Mood's Playing: Neyo's Mad

XiaoGu Bday 2008 backdated photos

2008-10-15T21:31:00.002+08:00

As promised... here's the backdated fotos taken last month when we went Settlers to celebrated my dearest xiaogu's bday!
my sis and my ''trying-to-be-funny bro...

concidentally, we were all in black...

rem i told u abt the Gigantic Root Beer Float?

look at this pic (where the arrow is) to get a better idea of how BIG the root beer float was...

say cheese!!

very delicious yummy vanilla ice-crem topped with warm chewy brownies!

See the tree on the table? It's also a game...=P

it was late at night so i decided to 'buy' the road and gt my sis to snap a pic of mi right in the middle.... haha

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oh ya. guess what. i've decided to buy No 2 [read previous entry] but i realised the site doesn't ship to Singapore...! Now.. where can i find other sites that have it and is secure... =(
Mood's Playing: Olivia Lim's All Out of Love

After Thoughts - Danz War

2008-10-13T17:00:00.001+08:00

Picture of the Month!!!

Mr Bean is so cute!! I miss school days… =(

So carefree…

Feeling vexed… seems to be getting myself involved in a lot of events but somehow I’m like heading no where… at the end of the day, still back to square one… =(

Should I continue to press on…?

[danz war]

‘Do No Disturb’ din get into the finals but none of us were disappointed. In fact, we are all very proud of ourselves... For making the 1st step to try and for giving our very best at the auditions! Great job! It has been a great experience and I’m glad I din gave in and choose to give up. Thank you to my girls and I look forward to even more stage experiences! Jia You!!!

[others]

I’m a Gemini. A Very true Gemini…. Good? Or bad….?

好烦啊!

Mood’s Playing: 石欣慧 ‘s 你没想像中爱我

shoes

2008-10-06T21:42:00.002+08:00

1.

2.

3.

Which one should I buy.....? Mood's Playing: Leowis's Bleeding Love

arcade

2008-10-02T16:21:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was public holiday *yays*

Went to get my hair ‘ironed’ and then rushed to Kovan to meet the girls for rehearsal then rush off to meet darling for dinner at Tampines. Went to BHG but couldn’t find the dress which I saw at Bugis BHG. Need to get a nice dress for the annual dinner!! Must get it on Sat!!

Anyway, it was a simple day. Dear and I went to arcade after dinner and we played really ‘young’ games like mini bowling, shoot-the-dinosaurs game and pinballs! Haha. Been quite some time since we had such brainless games…

Having a headache now… abit giddy… hope I’m not developing a fever. Shall stop typing here…

Mood’s Playing: 南拳妈妈’s 下雨天

Last Post for Sep 2008

2008-09-26T23:20:00.003+08:00

It's has been such a long time since i found myself sitting in front of the computer on a weekday night! Feeling very energetic today... perhaps cus i went for dear Ms Choon Hui classes today and the feeling of stepping back into the dance studio and getting to dance again reminded me on how i love dancing so much and i feel re-charged once more! Of course, the chance to see and catch up with dear Ms Choon Hui again after I've MIA for about 1month was also great! It's always nice to talk to her and listen to her funny stories about her young students.

Backtrack abit, celebrated my xiaogu's bday with my siblings and dear last Sun. My elder bro treated us to his cafe (aka Settlers) at Clarke Quay and we really had great fun! He wanted to let us have the new VIP room but due to some unforeseen circumtances, we made do with the sofas in the 'living room'. We played alot of games which I've never played b4 though I went there several times. My brother also gave all of us a HUGE surprise that night. He ordered a HUGE but very delicious and yummy bowl of vanilla ice-cream topped with mini pieces of hot chocolate brownies and just when we thought it was the end, he got the staff to bring out another GIGANTIC JUG of root bear float! By the way, did i mentioned that all of us had our dinner before going to Settlers and we even gobbled up the fingers food which consist mainly of fried food such as sotong balls, chicken wings, nuggets and cuttlefish strips. I think i must have put on a few more kilos of fats that night! But then.... the food was really nice. If i ever go there again, i must get my friends to order the vanilla ice-cream with the brownies! It's really a killer sia! hmmm.. . wait a min, i forgot to check if the milk was from China... =X

I would love to add some photos to this blog but my sis aka the camera girl has yet to upload the photos and send them to me.

[11.39pm]

Tml is StudioWu Code Edge Heats. Will be going down to keep my support to all who's joining! Jia You!!! I love watching dance competitions. It helps to keep me motivated cus I always look up to those good dancers with great showmanship. My own audition is coming too but i'm really worried. Crossing my fingers that we can get it work it by this Sun. Girls (if you are reading this and you know I'm referring to you), let's jia you ba! (>_-)

突然有想要用华文写簿落格的冲动，已经有好一阵子没有善长运用它了，感觉好像有点生锈了。。。惨了！才打了这么几句，我却觉得我好像已有几百个错字。。。懊恼@#%！#@。。。看来我得多多用华文来写这个blog 咯！不可以忘记华文可曾是我读书时期最骄傲的科目，所以我绝对不可以让它就这样退化或者慢慢消声觅级 (fine... i think i got the four wordings wrong again!)

无话可说。。。

Mood's Playing: 李玖泽 's 不。完美

牛仔很忙

2008-09-18T16:31:00.000+08:00

arGh!!! I’m not blogging… I’m not blogging…

these past few weeks and coming ones are and will be very hectic! My new office desk is already in a mess. Seeing it reminds me of the current stock market that is so messy as well… But at least time passes quickly for me and the good thing is that I don’t find myself dragging my body out of the bed to work every morning which is a good sign… a sign that I’m am enjoying my work.. *smirk*

Haben been able to go for dance classes due to my work and I feel really fat and lousy and de-proved…I just renewed a new package but I think I’ll waste the money for the 1st month cus I doubt I’ll be able to attend classes often. I better make it up when I’m less tight down with work!

Ohhh! I wrote a lyrics out the other day and sent it to Bev cus she mentioned that Replugged was going to have some showcase or sort. Not wanting to miss out anything, I actually managed to squeeze out something over the next few days and I must say I’m pretty proud of my accomplishment…even Bev complimented that it was not too bad sia… hee. Hopefully she can find someone to compose the melody for the lyrics. I would love to hear my lyrics come alive… =)

Ok. I don’t think I can afford to type any longer cus I need to get back to work. Hope this entry will keep you guys visiting my blog and please feel free to tag me k. I do click to my blog everyday. =)

Mood’s Playing: Jay Chou’s “牛仔很忙”

Updates!!

2008-09-03T14:00:00.001+08:00

For the past few weeks, I’ve been only dancing like once a week..? Damn disgusting la… am very busy with work… we got a major event coming up and I’m staying back almost everyday now to work on it! There are times when I really want to rush down to the studio for dance but the physical fatigue stopped me. I really miss dancing but I bet no one can tell cus somehow I can’t feel it also… but yes, I do love dancing still… ok. I think I’m starting to sound incoherent.

FJCK (Fion / Jenielle / Chayenne / Krist) is going to try our luck at the Danz People competition… I’m really just trying my luck… previously joanna asked me to join the Code Edge comps but I rejected due to the tight time. This time round, since the competition will be at a later date, so I convinced myself to give it a try…hope everything will turn out ok…

I have a lot of thoughts running in me these days… felt like penning them down into songs but I didn’t cus I just wasn’t at the right place and time to have the right instruments to record them down. I miss my singing days as well I guess…

Music is still a very big part of my life. It’s like the coffee that I drink every morning without fail. I can’t live without it.

I thought of writing a song titled “translation”. There are times in life when you realized that even if the person is speaking the same language to you, you still don’t get what he/she is saying. He might be the closest person to you but you just find it hard to understand what he is trying to bring across. It really hurts cus you realized things are not the same as before and how you wish you could learn his ‘language’ and communicate with him. I guess many of us come across such different phases in life where you need a translator in order to keep the communication going on. They say love crosses all boundaries; language, age, race, religion etc, I guess understanding and accepting is really what keep the love burning…

Random thoughts.

Mood’s playing: 锦绣二重唱 - 才爱到一半

作詞：姚若龍作曲：陳小霞

好久沒有你的信你的電話我只想要清楚的確定一下
我們只是吵了個很長的架或者你打算就這樣分了吧

媽媽電話裡問我過得好嗎我只能咬著嘴唇說不出話
每天晚上一個人走路回家淚水就不停無意識的流下

我們不是才愛到一半還有好多夢想沒有實現完
我想送你的生日驚喜夜晚你想帶我去的旅行怎麼辦

我們不是才愛到一半是誰講會好好珍惜這情感
也許不能愛會是一種遺憾然而不能不愛卻是種悲慘

媽媽電話裡問我過得好嗎我只能咬著嘴唇說不出話
每天晚上一個人走路回家淚水就不停無意識的流下

我們不是才愛到一半還有好多夢想沒有實現完
我想送你的生日驚喜夜晚你想帶我去的旅行怎麼辦

我們不是才愛到一半是誰講會好好珍惜這情感
也許不能愛會是一種遺憾然而不能不愛卻是種悲慘

想著你的溫柔比不上自大想著你的親吻比不上謊話
這是我要自己死心的方法但我怎麼還是那麼愛你呀

我們不是才愛到一半還有好多夢想沒有實現完
我想送你的生日驚喜夜晚你想帶我去的旅行怎麼辦

我們不是才愛到一半是誰講會好好珍惜這情感
也許不能愛會是一種遺憾然而不能不愛卻是種悲慘

Counting down to dear's bday

2008-08-25T11:41:00.002+08:00

Some updates on the happenings of the past few weeks…

My office has relocated to somewhere between Tanjong Pagar and Outram Park stations… no longer opposite studiowu keckseng tower BUT well, SW KS has also decided to shift it’s HQ to SMU! As usual, contractors never complete their work on time so currently all lessons are being held at SW EP while waiting for SW SMU to be ready…

Has been really busy with work thus I din have time to really go down for dance…. Almost went like just once a week… maybe I’m starting to drift away from dance… from passion to just a hobby (go only when free)… HOWEVER, I still love dancing! =)

I went for my dearest laoshi, Bevlyn’s debut concert in NUS UCC on wed, 13 Aug. IT WAS GREAT! I’m so proud to have her as my laoshi cus she is really good with her vocals and her piano… never mind her guitar was picked up only a few weeks ago, I can tell she did put in a lot of effort! She certainly relit the flame for singing in me. I thought I was totally wowed by dancing but hey! I still love to sing ok!

I met up with my bunch of poly kakis on sat, 16 Aug and surprisely, the rare guest aka Chuan Cheng appeared… I think it has been almost a year since I last saw him lo… anyway, glad he turn up. We went to my brother’s ‘café’ – Settlers and it was hell of a fun. I think we were having fun and laughter exposing each other‘s secrets and trying to figure who is the most kind hearted one etc and some easy guesses like who amongst us is the most gossipy… haha… I’m glad we didn’t go for KTV this time round (cus we always do) and it was actually a much more fun and cheaper outing! I’m certainly looking forward to another round of this… and I do hope Joe can make it the next time too!

And to catch abit of the Olympics fever… I did managed to catch a few of the interesting matches which I wanted to watch… like gymnasium! And of cus the match which I think almost 90% of the Singaporeans were watching - Table Tennis! Oh well, Olympics has ended and we’ll wait till 2012 for the London Olympics then! (hmm… by then I’ll be..23…24..25…26…27…*yieks*

Phew… what a brief update… haha…

Counting down to my darling’s bday… not planning any surprises for him (after last year’s Pasir Ris Park’s surprise celebration) cus I’m really very busy.. in fact I even have to work on Sun morning… I guess it’s going to be a very simple bday this year.

Ok. Hopefully I’ll come back again to blog about his bday or anything interesting…

Mood's Playing: Bevlyn Khoo's Play with me.

Life and How to Survive It

2008-08-13T12:25:00.002+08:00

My colleague sent me a speech by Adrian Tan (a litigation lawyer & the author of The Teenage Textbook) to the graduating class of 2008 at NTU convocation ceremony some time ago. I thought it was pretty interesting and meaningful so I’ll share it with you guys here. Enjoy! =)

Life and How to Survive It

I must say thank you to the faculty and staff of the Wee Kim Wee School of Communication and Information for inviting me to give your convocation address. It’s a wonderful honour and a privilege for me to speak here for ten minutes without fear of contradiction, defamation or retaliation. I say this as a Singaporean and more so as a husband.

My wife is a wonderful person and perfect in every way except one. She is the editor of a magazine. She corrects people for a living. She has honed her expert skills over a quarter of a century, mostly by practising at home during conversations between her and me.

On the other hand, I am a litigator. Essentially, I spend my day telling people how wrong they are. I make my living being disagreeable.

Nevertheless, there is perfect harmony in our matrimonial home. That is because when an editor and a litigator have an argument, the one who triumphs is always the wife.

And so I want to start by giving one piece of advice to the men: when you’ve already won her heart, you don’t need to win every argument.

Marriage is considered one milestone of life. Some of you may already be married. Some of you may never be married. Some of you will be married. Some of you will enjoy the experience so much, you will be married many, many times. Good for you.

The next big milestone in your life is today: your graduation. The end of education. You’re done learning.

You’ve probably been told the big lie that “Learning is a lifelong process” and that therefore you will continue studying and taking masters’ degrees and doctorates and professorships and so on. You know the sort of people who tell you that? Teachers. Don’t you think there is some measure of conflict of interest? They are in the business of learning, after all. Where would they be without you? They need you to be repeat customers.

The good news is that they’re wrong.

The bad news is that you don’t need further education because your entire life is over. It is gone. That may come as a shock to some of you. You’re in your teens or early twenties. People may tell you that you will live to be 70, 80, 90 years old. That is your life expectancy.

I love that term: life expectancy. We all understand the term to mean the average life span of a group of people. But I’m here to talk about a bigger idea, which is what you expect from your life.

You may be very happy to know that Singapore is currently ranked as the country with the third highest life expectancy. We are behind Andorra and Japan, and tied with San Marino. It seems quite clear why people in those countries, and ours, live so long. We share one thing in common: our football teams are all hopeless. There’s very little danger of any of our citizens having their pulses raised by watching us play in the World Cup. Spectators are more likely to be lulled into a gentle and restful nap.

Singaporeans have a life expectancy of 81.8 years. Singapore men live to an average of 79.21 years, while Singapore women live more than five years longer, probably to take into account the additional time they need to spend in the bathroom.

So here you are, in your twenties, thinking that you’ll have another 40 years to go. Four decades in which to live long and prosper.

Bad news. Read the papers. There are people dropping dead when they’re 50, 40, 30 years old. Or quite possibly just after finishing their convocation. They would be very disappointed that they didn’t meet their life expectancy.

I’m here to tell you this. Forget about your life expectancy.

After all, it’s calculated based on an average. And you never, ever want to expect being average.

Revisit those expectations. You might be looking forward to working, falling in love, marrying, raising a family. You are told that, as graduates, you should expect to find a job paying so much, where your hours are so much, where your responsibilities are so much.

That is what is expected of you. And if you live up to it, it will be an awful waste.

If you expect that, you will be limiting yourself. You will be living your life according to boundaries set by average people. I have nothing against average people. But no one should aspire to be them. And you don’t need years of education by the best minds in Singapore to prepare you to be average.

What you should prepare for is mess. Life’s a mess. You are not entitled to expect anything from it. Life is not fair. Everything does not balance out in the end. Life happens, and you have no control over it. Good and bad things happen to you day by day, hour by hour, moment by moment. Your degree is a poor armour against fate.

Don’t expect anything. Erase all life expectancies. Just live. Your life is over as of today. At this point in time, you have grown as tall as you will ever be, you are physically the fittest you will ever be in your entire life and you are probably looking the best that you will ever look. This is as good as it gets. It is all downhill from here. Or up. No one knows.

What does this mean for you? It is good that your life is over.

Since your life is over, you are free. Let me tell you the many wonderful things that you can do when you are free.

The most important is this: do not work.

Work is anything that you are compelled to do. By its very nature, it is undesirable.

Work kills. The Japanese have a term “Karoshi”, which means death from overwork. That’s the most dramatic form of how work can kill. But it can also kill you in more subtle ways. If you work, then day by day, bit by bit, your soul is chipped away, disintegrating until there’s nothing left. A rock has been ground into sand and dust.

There’s a common misconception that work is necessary. You will meet people working at miserable jobs. They tell you they are “making a living”. No, they’re not. They’re dying, frittering away their fast-extinguishing lives doing things which are, at best, meaningless and, at worst, harmful.

People will tell you that work ennobles you, that work lends you a certain dignity. Work makes you free. The slogan "Arbeit macht frei" was placed at the entrances to a number of Nazi concentration camps. Utter nonsense.

Do not waste the vast majority of your life doing something you hate so that you can spend the small remainder sliver of your life in modest comfort. You may never reach that end anyway.

Resist the temptation to get a job. Instead, play. Find something you enjoy doing. Do it. Over and over again. You will become good at it for two reasons: you like it, and you do it often. Soon, that will have value in itself.

I like arguing, and I love language. So, I became a litigator. I enjoy it and I would do it for free. If I didn’t do that, I would’ve been in some other type of work that still involved writing fiction – probably a sports journalist.

So what should you do? You will find your own niche. I don’t imagine you will need to look very hard. By this time in your life, you will have a very good idea of what you will want to do. In fact, I’ll go further and say the ideal situation would be that you will not be able to stop yourself pursuing your passions. By this time you should know what your obsessions are. If you enjoy showing off your knowledge and feeling superior, you might become a teacher.

Find that pursuit that will energise you, consume you, become an obsession. Each day, you must rise with a restless enthusiasm. If you don’t, you are working.

Most of you will end up in activities which involve communication. To those of you I have a second message: be wary of the truth. I’m not asking you to speak it, or write it, for there are times when it is dangerous or impossible to do those things. The truth has a great capacity to offend and injure, and you will find that the closer you are to someone, the more care you must take to disguise or even conceal the truth. Often, there is great virtue in being evasive, or equivocating. There is also great skill. Any child can blurt out the truth, without thought to the consequences. It takes great maturity to appreciate the value of silence.

In order to be wary of the truth, you must first know it. That requires great frankness to yourself. Never fool the person in the mirror.

I have told you that your life is over, that you should not work, and that you should avoid telling the truth. I now say this to you: be hated.

It’s not as easy as it sounds. Do you know anyone who hates you? Yet every great figure who has contributed to the human race has been hated, not just by one person, but often by a great many. That hatred is so strong it has caused those great figures to be shunned, abused, murdered and in one famous instance, nailed to a cross.

One does not have to be evil to be hated. In fact, it’s often the case that one is hated precisely because one is trying to do right by one’s own convictions. It is far too easy to be liked, one merely has to be accommodating and hold no strong convictions. Then one will gravitate towards the centre and settle into the average. That cannot be your role. There are a great many bad people in the world, and if you are not offending them, you must be bad yourself. Popularity is a sure sign that you are doing something wrong.

The other side of the coin is this: fall in love.

I didn’t say “be loved”. That requires too much compromise. If one changes one’s looks, personality and values, one can be loved by anyone.

Rather, I exhort you to love another human being. It may seem odd for me to tell you this. You may expect it to happen naturally, without deliberation. That is false. Modern society is anti-love. We’ve taken a microscope to everyone to bring out their flaws and shortcomings. It far easier to find a reason not to love someone, than otherwise. Rejection requires only one reason. Love requires complete acceptance. It is hard work – the only kind of work that I find palatable.

Loving someone has great benefits. There is admiration, learning, attraction and something which, for the want of a better word, we call happiness. In loving someone, we become inspired to better ourselves in every way. We learn the truth worthlessness of material things. We celebrate being human. Loving is good for the soul.

Loving someone is therefore very important, and it is also important to choose the right person. Despite popular culture, love doesn’t happen by chance, at first sight, across a crowded dance floor. It grows slowly, sinking roots first before branching and blossoming. It is not a silly weed, but a mighty tree that weathers every storm.

You will find, that when you have someone to love, that the face is less important than the brain, and the body is less important than the heart.

You will also find that it is no great tragedy if your love is not reciprocated. You are not doing it to be loved back. Its value is to inspire you.

Finally, you will find that there is no half-measure when it comes to loving someone. You either don’t, or you do with every cell in your body, completely and utterly, without reservation or apology. It consumes you, and you are reborn, all the better for it.

Don’t work. Avoid telling the truth. Be hated. Love someone.

You’re going to have a busy life. Thank goodness there’s no life expectancy.

~Adrian Tan

Mood’s playing: Fish Leong’s 满满的都是爱

D Day

2008-07-30T09:52:00.002+08:00

Yes!!! It's D DAY!!!

Finally... after so long, he's back!!

We do remember you and we have been waiting for you to return!

Jia You! Derrick Hoh 何维健!!!

Mood's Playing: Derrick Hoh 何维健's 無法歸類

你没想像中爱我

2008-07-22T16:05:00.002+08:00

I really love this song a lot… really…

你没想像中爱我

词：石欣卉
曲：So Million
制作：曾偉祺
演唱：石欣卉

你小心翼翼牵我手
其实是担忧藏不住我
自尊也投降活在她之下
我好傻

你字字句句说你不爱她
那又是什么让你害怕我
疑惑但是原谅因为你留下
我好傻

不是我不说就不在意空等候
原来你没想像中那么爱我
我不懂该拿什么安慰我的难受
你的存在让我更寂寞
你寸步不离像天使的她
挥霍我的爱从不放心上
我有一丝无奈也有一些明白
该放开

不是我不说就不在意空等候
原来你没想像中那么爱我
我不能再从你的怀抱感觉到什么
不爱我别再说假装爱那是撒盐在伤口

啊~~谁说我不在意空等候
原来你从来都没深刻爱我
我才懂不是我不心痛
其实是心没了感受

呜~~~你没想像中爱我

独家记忆

2008-07-14T17:45:00.002+08:00

I can’t figure out if I’m just trying to escape or am I really tired…

I don’t want to lose the passion and the happiness in dancing but why am I feeling so lost over it? While everyone has shown vast improvements after the recital, it seems that I’m moving backwards… Sometimes, I don’t even want to step into the studio cus I’m afraid to see myself dancing in the mirror… I don’t want to see myself struggling in front of the mirror… yes… I know I’m such a coward… I chose to ‘run away’ again today…

I was looking at the past videos which we took in classes during shifu’s time, I really missed hearing his voice in class and seeing him groove to the music.

---the song from the radio started playing---

Since his first album, I’ve been supporting him. I like the way he portray the songs and I always feel strongly for his songs… latest addiction below. I want to buy his album!!

陈小春-独家记忆 (got canto version also!!!)

忘记分开后的第几天起
喜欢一个人看下大雨
没联络孤单就像连锁反应
想要快乐都没力气

雷雨世界像场灾难电影
让现在的我可怜到底
对不起谁也没有时光机器
已经结束的没有商量的余地

我希望你是我独家的记忆
摆在心底不管别人说的多么难听
现在我拥有的事情
是你是给我一半的爱情
我喜欢你是我独家的记忆
谁也不行从我这个身体中拿走你
在我感情的封锁区
有关于你绝口不提没问题

Mood's Playing: 陈小春-独家记忆

Bangkok Trip 260708 - 010708

2008-07-08T14:36:00.002+08:00

I came back last tue but was down with fever and in fact I only really recover fully like erm… today? Well… at least no more headache or bad sore throat…really need to get my voice back before Sat…

Before I share further updates on my life, here are some photos we took in Bangkok…

Our Hotel..."A Place Small Enough to Call Home..." Went to eat @ Cabbages & Condoms.. =p Your eyes are nt playing tricks.. those modals are wearing 'condoms' clothes..

Hungry Dear!!!

Practice Safe Sex!!
Massage!!!
4-face buddha

Night Market!

Overwhelmed by their 'Massage' culture.. anywhere, everywhere also can...

Off to Chatuchat Market!
it's really very big and messy... we were lost...

Dear was dehydrating...he needed water!!

Trying out the new shades...
JJ market

Can you see us?

how come we looked so pale... their MRT.

This is beancurd... but it taste like ciggarette!! YuckS!

Oh... our hotel has a pool! and no, i din go for a swim...

Donuts!!

Dear found his 'twin'!

This Pighead is soo cuuteee!! love him!!

Outside Central World

our supper...

Chang Beer VS Heinken!
Mac Breakfast...
If only my hotel was Westin...
Swensens!

Nice cups they have! Y SG don't have?!

Now you see it....

Now you don't!
Pighead: Bangkok so hot.. i dun wan to come here next trip...Me: I haven shop enough la.. must come back!!

Mood's Playing: "CD" spoilt...

Oh... i'm gg to have my semi finals for the bedok superstar thingy this sat... am very stress... think i'm gg to have stage fright lo... it'll be my first time singing at such public area ba... i heard some of the contestants sang and i think they are good... sigh.. feels demoralised..

i miss my vocals lessons....

Post recital & off to BKK

2008-06-25T18:05:00.002+08:00

I dunno how to begin…. Should I start from all the recital rehearsals or straight to the performing days or jump to the post recital chalet or skip all the way to whatever that happens after the recital or can I fast forward and talk about my upcoming Bangkok trip instead?

I promised I’ll show photos of the recital right…? Hmmm… can you please refer to my facebook… you’ll see millions of it (ok.. maybe not millions…but hundreds..) =p

Think I shall not touch on the details of the post recital chalet and the post recital party. To sum it up, I had LOTSA OF FUN and I made LOTSA OF FRIENDS and I REALLY ENJOYED MYSELF!

After thoughts about the recital:
From auditions to rehearsals and finally the actual performances, my emotions went like a roller coaster (or Singapore Flyer). There were times when I felt really down and demoralized and there were the times when I felt really excited and all hyped up. The past 3 months made me realized a lot. There’s gains and there’s losses. I really love dancing… I realized I prefer dancing to singing… I love the stage…I’m really hoping to be up on stage again…Sometimes I really wonder if I can ever reach a certain standard for dance… I’m not tt young anymore… =(

Ok… I’m loss for words… like suddenly…

I’m flying to Bangkok tomorrow night for my ‘honeymoon’ with him. I hope this trip will be a fun one. I’m really looking forward to it cus I’m like finally able to devote myself to my darling… I’ve neglected him badly due to the recital and I think he is going to ‘disown’ me if I still dun find time for him…

Till I return k~

Mood’s Playing: Mariah Carey’s I Stay In Love

"I Stay In Love"

Dying inside cause I can't stand it
Make or break up
Can't take this madness
We don't even really know why
All I know is baby
I try and try so hard
To keep our love alive

If you don’t' know me at this point
Then I highly doubt you ever will
I really need you to give me
That unconditional love I used to feel
It's no mistaking
We're just erasing
From our hearts and minds

And I know we said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you now
No matter what I do
But baby, baby
I stay in love with you

Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na
Baby, I stay in love with you

It cuts so deep
It hurts down to my soul
My friends tell me
I ain't the same no more
We still need each other
When we stumble and fall
How we gon' act
Like what we had
Ain't nothin' at all now

Hey, what I wanna do is
Ride shotgun next to you
With the top down like we used to
Hit the block
Proud in the SUV
We both know our heart is breaking
Can we learn from our mistakes
I can't last one moment alone
Now go I know

We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do
Baby, baby
I stay in love with you

We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do
But baby, baby
I stay in love with you

I stay in love
Love
Oh, I stay in love.

Recital is Finally Over!

2008-06-12T13:47:00.003+08:00

Yes.. the recital has ended.

Ended with a very high note...

Gosh.. i have so much to say and show you guys but not today cus i'm terribly busy... will definitely find time to do so.. so do stay tune k.. =)

Meanwhile.. some fotos to keep you in suspense.. =)

Willy's item

Bryan's item (guys missing)

Mood's Playing: Luo Zhi Xiang - Dang Wo Meng Zai Yi Qi

Big Girls Don't Cry

2008-06-02T10:58:00.001+08:00

I suddenly realized that I’m really not as strong as I thought I was.

Perhaps I was too fatigue… I didn’t realized I have lost the old me during this period. The old me who used to be excited about going for dance classes… the old me who used to feel energize after a ‘power’ dance lesson. I miss my Sunday classes… I miss my ‘I-just-want-to-dance’ feeling… I’m back to the point where I start pondering on my objectives for dancing and I start to question myself and doubt myself…

I feel like hiding myself from the world. I remember how I used to walk alone around my neighborhood once when I was feeling really low. The serenity of the night was calming and I felt that I’ve escaped from all the unhappiness…
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Mood’s Playing: Fergie’s Big Girls Don’t Cry

Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
Your probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center,
Peace, Serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But Ive got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
Ill be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if u want to
Cause I want to hold yours too
Well be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But its time for me to go home
Its getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center,
Peace, Serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

ON the side of me

2008-05-23T16:13:00.002+08:00

On the side of me – Corrinne May

I'm not the easiest person to love
I'm often the one who lets things go unresolved

Yet you choose to be
On the side of me
On the side of me
Yet you choose to be on the side of me
On the side of me

I'm not too proud of some things
I've done in my life
The skeletons in my closet
Are too big for me to hide

Yet you choose to be
On the side of me
On the side of me
Blessed Charity
You're on the side of me
On the side of me

Everyone needs a friend to hold
When it's cold outside
And there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
All alone I cried
There was no place to go
I remember when nobody cared
But you

I'm not the easiest person to love
But you, you've opened your heart to show me what I'm worth

'Cause you choose to be
On the side of me
On the side of me
What a mystery
You're on the side of me
On the side of me

Everyone needs a friend to hold
When it's cold outside
And there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
All alone I cried
There was no place to go

I remember when nobody cared
Nobody cared
But you...

Yeah you choose to be
On the side of me
On the side of me

4 yrs anni

2008-05-22T09:59:00.001+08:00

4 years le!

Thank you for being so understanding especially during this period.

Thank you for tolerating all my unreasonable actions and nonsense.

Thank you for coming to fetch me from dance and drive me home even though you yourself are very tired.

Thank you for trying to act cute and stupid to try to cheer me up when I’m stressed.

Thank you for appearing in my life and saying “I Love You”.

I love you too!

*muAcks*

Mood's Playing: Yang Cheng Lin's Yu Shang Ai

Willy's Item

2008-05-08T10:42:00.001+08:00

Yesterday our group had a short 'serious' meeting.

[Willy was not around]

We have been practicing just 1 song for the past 4 or 5 sessions but we are still not getting it right… everyone seems to have left their focus outside the studio every time they come – I’m just one of the culprits. Chi Tang said something which I felt was very true… even before we see what Bryan or Sheila’s items look like, we already have the thinking that theirs are definitely good and ours are just so-so… way before anyone banished us we already sentenced ourselves to death… with such low confidence and morale… how can we enjoy the dance and put in our best?

Willy has been lenient with us… maybe too lenient. If it has been some other instructor, I’m sure we would have kana lectures 101 times already…and it din help that we only have about 3 hrs of prac time each week and that now we are limit to a smaller area for prac…

[I really hope we can do well on this Sun and get to do the 2nd song]

Really appreciate the concern from Choon Hui. She’s has been really encouraging. Got to prac hard and not let anyone and most importantly not to let myself down.

Kevin, Kelvin, Chi Tang, Danny, Alex, Wei An, Yong Kai, Kang Ting, Serene, Shernice, Sabrina, Krist, Jenielle (sis) and myself… Let’s Jia You everyone!!!

See you guys on Sun~

p/s: ha… I doubt these ppl read my blog…. *roll eyes*

Mood’s playing – Neyo’s Make it Work.

Zheng Jing Xuan - Wen De Tai Bi Zhen

2008-04-29T13:44:00.000+08:00

I came across an article in Today (if my memory didn’t fail me...) a few days ago. The author was wondering why people who are already feeling sad and depressed still want to listen to heartrending songs to make them feel even more miserable… there was an incident when he/she was in the car with a group of friends, happily chatting away when a melancholy song began to play from the radio, the author wanted to switch the channel but his/her friends stopped him/her. Suddenly the happy atmosphere was transformed into a gloomy and dull mood as his/her friends pulled a long face while listening to the song…

Hmm…. Emo?

To be honest, I think I’m one of the ‘crazy’ people who the author was referring… the kind of people who loves to make ourselves feel even more miserable when we are already feeling very lousy… and listening to these discouraging songs seems to be the best way to help us achieve this goal… but I guess the reason why I love to listen to sad songs when I’m feeling depress is because I feel tt when I listen to the lyrics or feel the melodies.. Somehow I feel that there is someone who understand what I’m gg through.. i know it’s not very healthy to dwell in such negative thoughts but maybe I’m just a sadist… I like to indulge in some quiet moments once in a while.. I like to listen to depressing songs about heartbreaks, about hurts about all sort of unhappy memories and then think about my own despondent times… I like to cry while thinking… feels like a release of emotions to me… Ok, I’m weird…

I think it’s been a long time since I really sat down and really listen to any sad songs… miss the feeling… oh well.. does it means I am happier nowadays or am I simply too busy to let my emotions come out….

Mood’s Playing: Zhang Jing Xuan – Wen De Tai Bi Zhen

emptiness

2008-04-29T13:38:00.001+08:00

The first full run will be on 19 May i.e. 20 days from today. This also means I am down with 20 days to lose the fats on me… arGh! I came across a tip in Shape Magazine – Have a King’s Breakfast, Prince(cess)’s Lunch & Pauper’s Dinner. Sounds interesting ya… I hope I can stick to it…

Rehearsals have been so-far-so-so. This, I’m referring to myself. Feels that I’m still lacking a lot of components like the ghetto feel, execution of steps is not sharp enough, timing is not on the beat etc etc… omg.. Why am I still not improving…

I’m pretty much caught in a dilemma. On one hand, I look forward to the recital to come but on the other hand, I also dread it. I cannot imagine the emptiness of me when the recital is over, when we no longer have our long hours of prac with the same group of people, no more ‘Again’ or ‘Do it one more time’ from the instructors.. it’s like suddenly the stage lights suddenly dim on you and you are left all alone sitting in the center of the stage…. Wel.. I guess I’m getting emo…

Stopping my keyboard lessons cus i don’t have time to prac and really very dui bu qi KY each time I go for class and I play like shit… very unfair to the other classmates also cus they have to wait till I finish playing the song then the class can move on… don’t think I should waste my own time and money with such pathetic progress also… Coming fri will be the ‘last’ lesson. Mark my word that I’ll take up keyboard again after I have better time management…

I’ve been dancing since ~~2002~~ 2005 but till date I don’t know if those little performances which I’ve done are considered any achievements… somehow I feel that I’m not making any head or tails about this whole dancing thing. Where am I heading to…? Will I be able to lead a life without dancing? Why am I dancing? Am I really contented just to dance in class or do I wish to venture further? If so, what should I do to reach my goal?

I seriously think I need a few days of good rest…physically and mentally.

Mood’s Playing: Mariah Carey’s Bye Bye

cute dear

2008-04-22T13:59:00.000+08:00

“Hello everybody. Well.. Due to overwhelming responses, Peiwen june performance ticket have been sold out. Leaving only S$32 seat. It’s to show support so price is ok ba. Haha. Let’s support the dancing queen yea. But if anyone think too ex let me know yea. Confirm with me by today. Hot seat selling fast… “

My dear sent this sms to our friends after I informed him about the tickets… I dunno if I should laugh at him or scold him for saying these… he can be so cute sometimes tt I cant bear to scold him also…

Tt’s one thing tt brighten my day abit today…

Mood’s Playing: Cao Ge’s Ai Ai.

disgusted!

2008-04-22T13:37:00.000+08:00

QL called me and informed me of a very disgusting piece of news…

The S$20 tickets for the recital (i.e my June dance concert) is sold out! For both days!!! Left only the first front row seats… kaoz… And the other next available tickets are priced at S$30!!!!!! OMG! How come the tickets are selling so fast? This is damn disgusting… I’m already having difficulty asking my friend to confirm cus the event doesn’t happen soon hence they cannot confirm and the price of the ticket is not cheap. For me, S$20 is also a lot la! & the best thing is tt the ticket price does not includes GST! *vomit blood* this is crazy….

I’m starting to doubt the management… feels tt they are out to con money… I know tt there is this girl who din go for auditions and yet she is in one of the item… It’s not as if she is a fabulous dancer (yes, I saw her danced before…). I guess it was for the participation fee? Sigh… I’m totally put off….

Suddenly I dun feel tt excited about the recital anymore… feels more like a tool for their money making. Getting us to get our friends to support and pay the exorbitantly not cheap tickets… arGh….

I’m so not happy. Pff.

Mood’s Playing: Wu Ying Liang Pin – “Shi Ni Bian Le Ma?”

MF Performance

2008-04-08T15:18:00.002+08:00

Music Forest In-House Performance has come to an end on Sat 5 April. I wouldn’t say it was a good performance due to some poor management. There were certain items which were really CMI… even my dear and my friends commented tt it was the worse concert they have ever attended… the only consoling thing was tt they mentioned tt dance was the only more interesting stuff within the whole concert…*pHew*

Anyway, it’s really true when we say “台上三分钟，台下十年功”… I felt like I just stood on stage for a few seconds and before I knew it, the next song came and I’m done! Well, I glad I din forget my steps but I think I still need to work harder on my facial expressions… I did try to smile and let myself look comfortable and enjoying the dance but I guess the expression was not exaggerating enough ba… must learn to sMileEEeee =)

Nonetheless, it feels good to be able to stand on stage and perform once more. I guess I’m pretty much a stage addict.

The end of the concert seems to be a good closure to my relationship with MF as well cus I don’t have any more courses in MF hence unless they start the Reggae course, I’ll not be going MF anymore.

Straight after the concert ended, I headed to SW for Bryan’s item rehearsal prac. It's the very 1st prac hence I didn’t want to miss it. When I arrived they were already dancing the choreo. Luckily Bryan taught this choreo before in his other class so I could catch up easily. Maybe I’m used to his teaching hence I felt tt Willy’s one seems to be abit more difficult to catch. But then again, maybe cus the music wasn’t as fast as Willy’s one… Certainly look forward to more interesting practices.

My sat is going to be full packed with Jazz Course from 1230-2pm, then Yutaki’s Fusion Hip Hop from 2-3pm. Afterwhich, I’ll head to Replugged for my vocal class from 4-5pm then it’s back to SW for Bryan’s rehearsal from 530-830pm. Sorry dear, please bear with me during this period. Sorry I can’t pei you much on sat…

Since we are at this topic, please allow me to do some publicity here and garner some support…

Wu Zone Recital 2008

Venue: National University of Singapore UCC Theatre
Dates: 7th June 2008 Saturday and 8th June 2008 Sunday
Time: 730pm
Ticket: Early Birds Promo S$20 and S$30 (Till end April). After 30 April, it’ll be S$25 & S$35.

I understand that the ticket is really not cheap but I really hope my friends can come and support me. Do let me know if you guys are interested ok. Many thanks in advance!

Dancing has become part of my life. If you take it away, you’ll take my life away…

Mood’s playing: Katherine Mcphee’s Ordinary World

Recital

2008-04-01T18:24:00.002+08:00

I'm all alone in the office now...

Din go for Carol's ghh cus I always feel so retard in her class... sigh... took morning leave today cus I was having this terrible headache...

The past few days, everyone was talking about the recital... who's in this, who is not, why ABC not here or why XYZ is here etc etc... Sigh...

Was rather happy when i found out tt i got thru and into Suman's item but few days later i received a call to find tt it's been cancelled... well, i still have willy =)

but 2 days later, my sis told me we're in bryan's item as well.

huh?

Now, tt's when the stress come... afterall a glance at the ppl in his item.. i think mi and my sis are the lousiest... and some how i think we are there to just fill in the numbers...? Omg.. since when did i start feelin so inferior.....

been thinking alot about it.. can't believe i actually got so stress up over it... there are like so many ppl out there fighting to get into his item and yet i'm troubling about it. Maybe I dun wish to disappoint bryan if we fail to perform to his expectations... sigh...

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MF's performance is this sat and I dun feel prepared at all.

~Mood's playing: Jay Chou's Feng~

MF Inhouse Performance

2008-03-24T15:59:00.001+08:00

MF Performance is coming in another 12 days time.

Items involved: SHORT MV Dance & Hip Hop Item.

Oh well… as the above suggest, I’ll be doing 2 items for the upcoming MF in-house concert on 5th April at YMS Auditorium. Sounds rather exciting yar but I’m not really feeling it yet… maybe the anxiety to know about SW’s recital audition results is much more overpowering than to get all hype up for the concert… Nonetheless, I really hope to put up a good show for the concert… My very first time on stage with my dance buddies – Ah Qiao & Ah Shan… haha

Channel U is starting Super Band again…I still remember how crazy I was last year over this Super Band show & how I really supported Soul… I remember screaming for them during the finals and felt so touched when I heard them sing Kai Shi Dong Le cus they really showed vast improvements… If only he’s still here… I’m sure he will be one of the special guests for the show…

I guess it’s going to be a moody season again… =(

Mood’s Playing: Kai Shi Dong Le

Recital Audition

2008-03-13T09:16:00.002+08:00

Crestfallen.

I cannot believe myself. How could I have allowed myself to make such mistakes? I wasn’t nervous or scared. But why?

Disappointment.

Tell me it didn’t happened….

Looking back I realized there are like a thousand and one things I could have done to avoid it…

Sob….

~Mood's playing: Gai Wang Le Ni Dui Bu Du~

less than a week at work

2008-02-29T15:20:00.002+08:00

New job started on Mon and today is suppposed to be my 5th day at work and guess what?

I'm on my 1st MC already!

Was already feeling abit feverish on Thur morning but could still go to office but when I went to sleep yesterday, I knew I was not going to make it the next day cus my fever seems to have taken a bad turn. Was shivering the whole night & the headache didn't help to make things better.

Felt really bad to be taking MC when I just started work & yet I couldn't even tahan thru 1 week... Sigh.. this is bad la...

Took the medicines and now feeling v drowsy... think i shall head back to my bed & rest...

~Changes for the better or worse?~